I've backspaced and deleted countless times to try and put this into words:
Two weeks ago I became a girlfriend. Two weeks ago I said yes do to sympathy.
Now I remain his girlfriend. Now I still don't want him.
The Full Story:
I met this boy 3 months ago and for the first 2 months I was head over heels. For the past month and a half I lost interest and became bored with him. 2 weeks ago he asked me to be his girlfriend and out of guilt I agreed. Before me, there was no girl he had previously gone out with. I'm his first girlfriend. He is my 5th boyfriend. He's never kissed a girl. I've kissed a boy countless times. I'm expected by everyone to teach him the way relationships work, yet do to his ignorance and immaturity about relationships I have been in pure agony. I've been sexually frustrated for 2 weeks, pleasing myself daily for the past 14 days. I've resorted to cheating, yet my conscience will not allow that guilt to be put upon me. Besides this issue, my friends continue to pressure me to give him a chance. I'm not sure I can take anymore of this shameful relationship. He's been extremely happy ever since I became his girlfriend and I have been miserable. We talk yet I hear nothing said. We hold hands yet I feel nothing.
Help?
Tags: confused,
guilty
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