A - ex boyfriend
B - current boyfriend
i've been dating B for 5 months now, and it's really serious and we've talked about getting married and having kids (neither of those in the near future though). but we've talked about spending the rest of our lives together and i love him so much. he gets me. he knows when i'm upset. but during intimate moments, he wants all the pleasure. i'll make him cum 2 or 3 times, but he'll never offer to have me cum.
B is gone for a month. in rehab. he left a week and a half ago. hasn't called yet. it's not his first time in rehab, and he says that they're really not allowed to call people. his biggest fear about going to rehab for a month was that he thought i'd leave him. i promised him that i'd be here waiting for him.
right before dating B, my heart was shattered by A. i mean, he completely broke my heart. he was my first everything. he was the first person i said "i love you" to. then i get a call one day and oops! A has a girlfriend and a child! i mean i was devistated. and then B showed up. it took me a while to let him in. but B stayed and broke down my walls.
yesterday i hooked up with A yesterday. it was seriously one of the hottest sexual moments i've ever had. i know that i should stay away from A because of how bad he hurt me, but i'm still extremely attracted to him and drawn in by him. on the other hand, i know i can see being with B for the rest of my life.
so what do i do? be with A who gives me tons of sexual pleasure but broke my heart. or be with B, who understands me and my innerworkings and is a great guy who could be with me until the rest of forever, but is a bit selfish when it comes to sex.
help.
Tags: love,
confused,
sex,
pleasure
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