A true love found and lost
Posted by an anonymous user on 4/27/2008 3:59:00 PM
I am a female married with a son. Me and my husband were known each other for the past 17 years we graduated together in a foreign country. and on our return we married because we were comfortable with each other and were good friends. I was working in a remote area and just two days before my marriage I met this guy in his late thirties . He didn't speak much. But there was something I couldn't forget the way he was staring at the far away mountains. For no reason I cried that night. But I got married as planed.
One day all of a sudden I got a call from that guy . And we started talking over the phone. He was married with two kids. He said he loved me but often mentioned that his family is number 1. I didn't bother. I didn't want to break his family. I was totaly attracted to him. I loved his voice and the way he was behaving. We had good times and intiment moments. But not real physical sex. My son was born and I made up my mind to be a good mum I realized I must stop. so I told him not to call.
But he never stoped calling me once in a while he called me or left a message in the office. Very rarly I returned his calls. Six years passed but throughout I couldn't forget him. Then again we became close, more closer than ever. The relationship with my husband became bad. I couldn't simply divorce him because I wanted my child a family. And I had my insecurities.. may be. But finaly I sugested my husband for a divorce. I knew the guy I am in love with will never leave his family or marry me. My husband was busy with his travels and friends. I was preparing to make my decision.
And then It was a school vacation. We rarely called and met. As he got together with his family and that we had an understanding that we shouldn't disturb each others family. And one day morning he called and told me that he is spending time with his family. And that he'll call me later. I told him to forget me and take care of his family. He said that He will call me after the vacation.
A week passed I was so in love with him. I didn"t stop thinking about him. But I didn't call. I kept quiat. I wanted him to call. And one evening one of my collegues called and gave me the news. That my lover had just passed away around 6 pm that day of a heart attack. I remember the things that he said to me " I will stop calling you only if i die", I don't know if I can forget you even if I die", I believe in rebirth I will wait for you. I asked what if your wife comes first? and he said "don't worry I will wait for you". But I couldn't believe that he talked about his funeral at the last time we met. He asked whether I will come to the church?' I said No I will only pay the visit to the house to see him. I saw his body lying in the spreded coffin. I only saw him as sleeping. I couldn't cry. I spoke to his mother. nobody knew me. I came back. He was inside my head. Now 2 years gone. I still cry for him and love him. I will grieve for him rest of my life. But i am still married.
Tags: love, marriage, parenting, unfaithful, life, death
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One day all of a sudden I got a call from that guy . And we started talking over the phone. He was married with two kids. He said he loved me but often mentioned that his family is number 1. I didn't bother. I didn't want to break his family. I was totaly attracted to him. I loved his voice and the way he was behaving. We had good times and intiment moments. But not real physical sex. My son was born and I made up my mind to be a good mum I realized I must stop. so I told him not to call.
But he never stoped calling me once in a while he called me or left a message in the office. Very rarly I returned his calls. Six years passed but throughout I couldn't forget him. Then again we became close, more closer than ever. The relationship with my husband became bad. I couldn't simply divorce him because I wanted my child a family. And I had my insecurities.. may be. But finaly I sugested my husband for a divorce. I knew the guy I am in love with will never leave his family or marry me. My husband was busy with his travels and friends. I was preparing to make my decision.
And then It was a school vacation. We rarely called and met. As he got together with his family and that we had an understanding that we shouldn't disturb each others family. And one day morning he called and told me that he is spending time with his family. And that he'll call me later. I told him to forget me and take care of his family. He said that He will call me after the vacation.
A week passed I was so in love with him. I didn"t stop thinking about him. But I didn't call. I kept quiat. I wanted him to call. And one evening one of my collegues called and gave me the news. That my lover had just passed away around 6 pm that day of a heart attack. I remember the things that he said to me " I will stop calling you only if i die", I don't know if I can forget you even if I die", I believe in rebirth I will wait for you. I asked what if your wife comes first? and he said "don't worry I will wait for you". But I couldn't believe that he talked about his funeral at the last time we met. He asked whether I will come to the church?' I said No I will only pay the visit to the house to see him. I saw his body lying in the spreded coffin. I only saw him as sleeping. I couldn't cry. I spoke to his mother. nobody knew me. I came back. He was inside my head. Now 2 years gone. I still cry for him and love him. I will grieve for him rest of my life. But i am still married.
Tags: love, marriage, parenting, unfaithful, life, death
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