Agh why do i get jealous with my girlfriend so easily

Jealousy isn't an emotion with me, its more like a chronic illness.I get over it, but it reoccurs once in a while from the stupidest things.My friend and my girlfriend used to flirt around a lot before we started going out, they almost started going out at one point and I almost let them.I came to the realization that this was a repeating cycle in my life.The girl I liked and who liked me, who I had known for much longer than him was about to be taken by him.It bothered me and I almost stood by and watched.This repeating cycle of me not taking agency, not taking what I want, letting others step over me.I didn't let it happen, I gained some courage and swept her of her feet and now we love each other.

Her and my friend did have a lot of chemistry though, they had a lot in common, he was also her type.She's really hyperactive and doesn't realize it sometimes and when she acts like this she does things that he reads as signals of flirtation or attraction mostly because he's a dumb ass that has no idea how to read people.

Damnit I don't know what to do though it feels like shit to be jealous, its not angry jealousy, its just depressed hopeless jealousy.Its not that I feel like I need to beat him at something, its that I feel like I've already lost and wouldn't have won anyway.

Today after school I was really busy and wasn't able to give her much attention due to this and she was in a really hyper mood and she started playing around with him, she like jumped in his arms and pinned him against a locker and felt his chest muscles and he flexed them for her.She was just having fun thats just how she's always been as long as I've known her.It just made me feel horrible though… I got back from finishing a bunch of paper work and turning things in and I just see them like that and their laughing like its nothing.

Two nights earlier we were doing that… She jumped in my arms and she was amazed because no ones ever lifted her before, she said I was strong and then I took her virginity afterwards, it just felt like this special thing and then here she is doing it with this douchebag like its nothing.
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Why don't you tell her to stop? Cause she shouldn't be flirting if she is with you...
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