AM I ALONE????

Don't act on the attraction until you're a little older. When I was your age I was attracted to guys in their 40s and 50s, too. I didn't realize until I was in therapy years later that this attraction was because I had hidden issues with my father. We were never close and I always craved that. When I was 15, there was a 41-year old man at church that I had a mutual attraction to. He married a young woman that he met online a few years later. He's now a controlling, abusive husband and his wife is unhappy. I'm just so glad it's not me that's married to him. Also when I was 21, I met a man who was 42. I was very trusting. He told me that he was separated from his wife. I assumed that meant he was going through a divorce. He was only separated by distance because of work. It took 2 months to drag the whole truth out of him. I stayed with him for almost a year because I never thought I would find anything better or that I deserved better.
Now I'm 25. I'm in a satisfying relationship with a man who is in his mid-thirties. It took me some time and some maturing to get to where I am. Give it some time. Don't rush into anything at your age.

Just be careful with this. There are a lot of older men out there that would love to abuse you. You're very young still and if I was you, I would wait until I was 18 until I decided to be with that much older of a man. Everyone has different preferences, so I wouldn't feel bad about being attracted to older guys. Just make sure that you aren't taken advantage of.