i used to be happy and satified with the company of my closest friends. i never really considered to have a romantic relationship. i used to find flirting and hooking up waste of time. but i met this guy, i realized that im inlove with an older married man. he had always been kind, warm and responsive to me. he is a wonderful guy, hard working, and one of the best in his profession.
but i knew he loves his family so much, and so i didnt pursue. at times, i would feel that he is sending me mixed signals, like he would call me up just to check on me, we text that would last for more than hours, he would always assure me of his care and support. everytime we meet we always laugh at each others joke, and he would always hold my hand and look at me in the eyes.
But lately, i noticed that hes been giving me more confusing gestures, like he would no longer respond as often as he used to be when i reach out, but he doesnt want me to stop, he said.
sometimes, he would share his feelings and how his day went. i wanted to make the first move, but i dont know whether i could get away with it once he rejects me.
i wanted to show him that i would never be demanding, that it is wonderful to have me in his arms and that i could love him despite the fact that he is married. he cofessed he would want to see me as often as possible and that he is happy around me. but i dont know how far he is wiling to take this, i want him to love me.
i want to enjoy the ride with him. i know it would never be forever,, but i want him to be my first kiss. my first love and my first boyfirend.
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