My ex's new girlfriend called me Saturday night and told me about all the things I was doing wrong. About all the things I've been doing to upset my ex. Well. I'm sorry. I am not allowed to contact him again, the new girlfriend will yell at me again if I do (she made me promise I wouldn't ever contact him again). I do not still love him, I only want closure. He wouldn't say a word to me...so for me...cutting somehow rights all the terrible things I did to him without having to contact him.
I cheated on him once. I used him as an emotional punching bag for almost three years. He just took it.
I am a terrible person. That's why I cut.