Are you even real?
Posted by an anonymous user on 9/4/2008 8:37:00 PM
Sometimes I feel like you only tell me things you think I want to hear.I can't even trust that you truly love me.If you really loved me you wouldn't tell me that you will be less inclined to walk to my apartment when it gets cold.That made me feel worthless, thanks.
I also think I am overreacting...I hate how the pill makes me feel.This is how I got with the first pill I was on.Is it weird that after 8 or 9 months of not having my period thats all I want now? I don't want to be so cranky or easily annoyed all the time anymore, I know you don't deserve it.
Why are you even with me? I am completely crazy, and you see it everytime I get too drunk.When I told you I wanted to run away from everything I meant I wanted to run away from this relationship...but I lied and said it was everything else going on.I am so sorry.
I want to not lie to you and tell you everything is fine when it isn't anymore...but even though I love you I am not comfortable enough to talk to you about my problems.And I wish you would talk to me about your childhood, you are so vague about it and I know awful things happened, but you know the worst of my life...you where friends with me when I was with him.That makes me wonder why I doubt that you love me.When you saw me with him I thought there was never a chance with me and you.I was happy when I realized there was.
I am not good with relationships, I get too easily stressed and annoyed...and I want to blame it on the pill.I wasnt like this before...I want to fix it but I don't know how.
If this relationship fails, I am done trying.I can't handle another failed relationship.
I don't even know why I think about that now, its only been 4 months and so far we are great.How do I stop this?
Tags: crazy, love, pill, lies
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I also think I am overreacting...I hate how the pill makes me feel.This is how I got with the first pill I was on.Is it weird that after 8 or 9 months of not having my period thats all I want now? I don't want to be so cranky or easily annoyed all the time anymore, I know you don't deserve it.
Why are you even with me? I am completely crazy, and you see it everytime I get too drunk.When I told you I wanted to run away from everything I meant I wanted to run away from this relationship...but I lied and said it was everything else going on.I am so sorry.
I want to not lie to you and tell you everything is fine when it isn't anymore...but even though I love you I am not comfortable enough to talk to you about my problems.And I wish you would talk to me about your childhood, you are so vague about it and I know awful things happened, but you know the worst of my life...you where friends with me when I was with him.That makes me wonder why I doubt that you love me.When you saw me with him I thought there was never a chance with me and you.I was happy when I realized there was.
I am not good with relationships, I get too easily stressed and annoyed...and I want to blame it on the pill.I wasnt like this before...I want to fix it but I don't know how.
If this relationship fails, I am done trying.I can't handle another failed relationship.
I don't even know why I think about that now, its only been 4 months and so far we are great.How do I stop this?
Tags: crazy, love, pill, lies
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