i used to hold back alot... i still do... my first bf i met over the internet and lived 40mi away... i was scared and thought no one thought i was attractive enough... i still wonder about that sometimes... but just let go... be happy being you... cuz just when your compleatly happy just being you someone will sneak up on you and it will be great... just relax... dont worry so much... boyfriends arent all they are cracked up to be anyway...