Can i say like this?

Posted by IDK on 12/12/2007 8:37:00 AM

I have been w/my husband since I was 15 had our fist kid at 19 or second at 20. I dop care for him but I think my love for him is just love for the father of my children. For the past THREE years I have not wanted to be in this relationship. I realize too late that I was young and didnt want to be married, so I left him for about two weeks and he begged me to come back saying that he had no life without me and that he would do anything to make me happy even if that was to give me space but as long as I lived with him so I went back out of guilt. I dont love him anymore I care for him and I dont want him to hurt but I want to go my own way. I have liked other guys and at the moment like a teacher at my kids school he's the same age as me he's not my kids teacher or even teaches the same grade level, but I see this guy every day and I know he's into me too. Everytime I see him it's a different feeling he's nice, polite, cute,educated,and gives me the butterfies as if I were this 17 yr. old girl again. This is not the first guy I have liked since being with my husband but the first one to make me feel like this.Now I dont want to be the bad parent who split up the fam. but i'm misrable being with someone you dont love is deppressing and I dont think I can do this anymore. My husband has started being jealous cause I have recentlly lost 39 lbs. after gaining weight from haveing my kidsand my feelings have just increased since lossing weight. Should I say for the sake of the kids or leave for the sake of my mental health! I dont know what to do I'v been w/him so long and I know everyone will say "how can she do this" but I'm not IN love with him dont even think I ever loved him.

Tags: love, husband, relationship, married, health

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