Completely lost...
Posted by Mountaineer on 7/7/2008 12:13:00 AM
I feel like an alien in my own skin and surroundings. It takes a huge amount of effort to do just about anything these days. The only thing that seems to get me through till tomorrow is my job. I enjoy my work.. it's the rest of my life that is completely miserable.
Up until a year ago I thought that life was cruel and meaningless.... then "Sharon" walked into my life. On 9/5/07 the woman I've dreamt about my entire life came on the scene and turned things upside down for me. We fell deeply in love with each other and I enjoyed nearly 5 months of magical love. We planned to be married, children, etc. I never thought such bliss and complete peace was possible. Every moment spent with her was precious and something I treasured... I'd never had someone love me from the bottoms of my feet to the top of my head. She truly loved me completely...
On 1/23/07 everything changed... I lost her. I lost the most wonderful person I'd ever known. Suddenly and abrultly my life went from magical to complete hell. The past 6 months have been a struggle to breath. Everything in life hurts. My heart is completely shattered...
I've read and heard about others recovering from such a loss, but I can't imagine how. I live in the country and work as a Wireless Network Engineer (cell tower rigging and maintenance), so I'm a strong and strapping man. This has brought me to my knees and I feel like I'm losing the battle...
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Up until a year ago I thought that life was cruel and meaningless.... then "Sharon" walked into my life. On 9/5/07 the woman I've dreamt about my entire life came on the scene and turned things upside down for me. We fell deeply in love with each other and I enjoyed nearly 5 months of magical love. We planned to be married, children, etc. I never thought such bliss and complete peace was possible. Every moment spent with her was precious and something I treasured... I'd never had someone love me from the bottoms of my feet to the top of my head. She truly loved me completely...
On 1/23/07 everything changed... I lost her. I lost the most wonderful person I'd ever known. Suddenly and abrultly my life went from magical to complete hell. The past 6 months have been a struggle to breath. Everything in life hurts. My heart is completely shattered...
I've read and heard about others recovering from such a loss, but I can't imagine how. I live in the country and work as a Wireless Network Engineer (cell tower rigging and maintenance), so I'm a strong and strapping man. This has brought me to my knees and I feel like I'm losing the battle...
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I sure wish time would heal this wound... It's been 8 months and I am absolutely lost. Today was our anniversary date. All I want to do is turn this pain off... My existence is miserable, but I can't get myself to end it. I just can't hurt my mother like that.
Posted by Mountaineer on 9/5/2008 10:49:00 PM (Report abuse)
you've still got so much to work for, its so sad when you lose someone, but look on the bright side of life, things can only get better. dont hold on, but dont let go either. time heals all wounds! x
Posted by Lauraax on 7/8/2008 4:02:00 PM (Report abuse)
awwww this story touches me it's so sad.I feel your pain and it's unbearable.for the one person who made u happy to be gone is so painful.but what is so bad in your life?
Posted by Chan2k7 on 7/7/2008 12:38:00 PM (Report abuse)