Confused, no light

Posted by an anonymous user on 6/4/2008 1:57:00 PM

I'm not sure i fI ever really know hwa t to do. the past couple years my marriage hasn't exactly been very solid, if it ever was. I've always been every good at pretending, denile. It seems as if I've always been vaugley seeking something other than what I have. Work, the occasional friend. Every year it seem to be something different . A year into dating I almost broke up with him. Felt like we'd hit a wall. We'll I tried to. But I felt so bad about it I couldn't go trough. Then I got pregnant and we got married. The sex has never been great. Never been much. But in my search from friends outside of marriage I never crossed the physical line till last year. It was a threesome situation. a couple we knew. Me and them. It went from january till sometime in may of last year. I think. He knew some of wha tI did with them, but not all. Then late last year I met someone, the father of one of my daughter friends. It ws nice talking to another adult. Didn't seem again till febuary. We started hanging out, then about a month later we started sleeping together. We tried stopping a couple of times. Didn't work. But now, I think we are. I think he's avoiding me. I've been depressed latly, so I'm not sure. PMS, what have you. I tend to imangine things when I'm depressed. I like him even without the sex. And want to continue hanging out with him. And that's only a fraction of my problems.

Tags: affair, marriage, pain

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