Cutting For Real

I hate it.I hate the whole world.
I hate long sleeved tops and sweat bands.I hate my stupid self.
Today I can stare at my cuts for a long time.I need to cut.Right now.I want to write about how much I hate life.I want to write HATE along my leg.I want to write LIAR on my wrist.
I want to cut...
I hate myself.HATE.HATE HATE HATE.
I got a new razor blade, yes I did.The other one was so useless, I'd used it to shave my legs long ago and then I smashed it...this one is a NEW razor blade.My wrists bled for real that time.My sweater had long smears of my own blood....I stared at the blood dripping down my arm.

And I love it.
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goneinside
Such beautiful inner torment. This is a sad, yet so wonderful secret. You're a true poet, my dear. <3
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TakiSama
Omg readng this makes me want to cut so bad again im only thirteen and we share the exact same fellings.....
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RonnieRadkeLuva
cutting yourself might seem like the answer, but it's not.
it might feel better at the moment, but it won't help you one bit in the long run.
do anything to release your emotions except cutting. yell. scream. cry. throw things. break things. break anything but yourself.
next time you want to cut, leave the room you're in. go outside. go for a long walk or a drive. listen to your favorite song. call a friend. do anything to distract yourself from the urges, and they'll go away.
cutting is not dealing with the pain. it's an attempt to distract yourself from it, to numb it. meet your emotions face to face. don't hide from them or bottle them up. you can cope with the pain. you're stronger than this.
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sarita15
no deary,
don;t.
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yesnomabyeso
um, you need help :/
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Love
0.o Whats goin' on?
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