I hate it.I hate the whole world.
I hate long sleeved tops and sweat bands.I hate my stupid self.
Today I can stare at my cuts for a long time.I need to cut.Right now.I want to write about how much I hate life.I want to write HATE along my leg.I want to write LIAR on my wrist.
I want to cut...
I hate myself.HATE.HATE HATE HATE.
I got a new razor blade, yes I did.The other one was so useless, I'd used it to shave my legs long ago and then I smashed it...this one is a NEW razor blade.My wrists bled for real that time.My sweater had long smears of my own blood....I stared at the blood dripping down my arm.
And I love it.