I'm done entirely
no more talking
no more people wanting me to talk
no more people saying they'll do shit for me and never do it
no more peoplg saying we'll meet up and they never show
no more anything
im done I'm tired I'm sick of it
i hate my life I hate myself
im some awesome computer fucking genius who could make computers walk and talk if I wanted to
and I'm this amazing wonderful leader of over 120 people who inspires
and has mad skills
and knows so much and is full of wisdom
and can read minds and can make people think anything
and is so kind and caring
and god knows what other delusional lies they believe
I frankly dont like being able to tell what people think even whe they dont say it.Because frankly often what they are thinking ins't nice.
I don't like being able to make people think different stuf b/c sometimes I wonder if I made them think that or do they really think that.
i dont like being thought of as some amazing psychology expert.Everything thinsk its so great.its not.they don't realize I spend every moment of my life afraid of nothing.I'm always afraid I'll be stalked again, someone might pull a gun on me or god knows what else.
I want to be one of those totally oblivious stupid idiots who couldn't figure out whats going around them if you spelled it out for them.Thats what I want to be.So I could live a stupid simple life and feel fulfilled.
I'm done talking, I'm just done.Because apparently all I'm doing I hurting people this way.so the solution is simple, no more.end of story
I'm done with everything, goodnight everyone