Fuck. I hate this.
Posted by an anonymous user on 8/11/2008 5:06:00 AM
I hate that I want to hate you. I hate that I'm not strong enough to let you go and keep you that way. I hate that you broke me and confused me and that I said it was ok. I hate that I still cry myself to sleep sometimes. I hate how I care so fucking much but to me it seems that don't care at all. I hate all of this. Most of all I hate that I can't tell you any of this without me losing all of you. I hate it. You make me feel forgotten and wanted and played. You make me believe all these things and I don't even know if they're true though I said I trusted you. I want to trust you so much but half the time you give me so many reasons not to. What if I really said this to you? What it make a difference? Would you just say sorry and then things would be the same, as in me being forgotten? Would you completely let me go? This is always inside my thoughts slowly bringing me down. And I think even if I told you, it would just make it all worse. It would change everything even and it would never be even close to the same again. So go ahead and treat me like you always do. Treat me like I'm some forgotten friend who used to like you even though you "love me". I know you mean love as in a friendship but you don't show me even that. You don't show me anything and I don't know what I'm supposed to do anymore.
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I know exactly how you feel. My boyfriend broke up with me 5 months ago and I still really like him....It is so hard to let go of all those past feelings that we had. All those things he said to me.
When we broke up he couldnt even give me a proper reason.
It now seems like he has just forgotten about me, like I never existed.
I want him back but I know it will never happen. But then again I shouldn't want him back. I should realise that hes not worth it and neither is your guy
I know you've probably been told this 100 times but you really just need to step back from him. When he comes into your mind just try and push all those feelings way, just for a while and you will notice it will all begin to become easier.
I'm not going to admit that its easier or that I do it all the time but its something Im trying at the moment.
You can do it and you can find someone else, someone better!
"The only people you need in your life are the ones that prove they need you in theirs."
When we broke up he couldnt even give me a proper reason.
It now seems like he has just forgotten about me, like I never existed.
I want him back but I know it will never happen. But then again I shouldn't want him back. I should realise that hes not worth it and neither is your guy
I know you've probably been told this 100 times but you really just need to step back from him. When he comes into your mind just try and push all those feelings way, just for a while and you will notice it will all begin to become easier.
I'm not going to admit that its easier or that I do it all the time but its something Im trying at the moment.
You can do it and you can find someone else, someone better!
"The only people you need in your life are the ones that prove they need you in theirs."
Posted by Anon on 8/12/2008 6:15:00 PM (Report abuse)