Gone.
Posted by anniekmonroe on 8/24/2008 2:29:00 PM
I don't really know how to explain what's so wrong with me.I hate that my thoughts don't translate in the form of a language. I'm angry and frustrated and I feel like I've lost myself.I've become someone I hate and it almost feels like I deserve it.I've always had this idea of who I want to be, but I continuously let myself down by proving that I can't be anything than what I already am.
I feel like everything's fake and I've lost any trust I used to have for this world.I just miss my old perception on life...and still feeling like there's hope for happiness.I wish I could trust people when they tell me they like me..and I wish I didn't have to question so much.I don't understand where everything went so wrong.
I don't really know how to say what I want to say.
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I feel like everything's fake and I've lost any trust I used to have for this world.I just miss my old perception on life...and still feeling like there's hope for happiness.I wish I could trust people when they tell me they like me..and I wish I didn't have to question so much.I don't understand where everything went so wrong.
I don't really know how to say what I want to say.
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It's crazy. It's like. When I really sit down and think about it, I almost wonder if there's actually anything wrong with me. It's almost as if, I make myself think I have problems when I can just as simply let go of it all- but then I can't help but feel like something's constantly wrong with myself.
Of course there's qualities I'm happy with, and honest to God, I wouldn't want anyone else's life if I had the choice.
I just wish I could have all the answers. Nothing feels the way it seems to be anymore and I'm not sure where I lost myself. I have a horrible habit of over-analyzing literally everything... and it brings me no where but down.
Most of the advice I get is to not think so much, but then I've wondered, doesn't that make me so much of who I am? I just want to be comfortable and content. I'm so far away from it. I just can't figure out what I'm missing.
Of course there's qualities I'm happy with, and honest to God, I wouldn't want anyone else's life if I had the choice.
I just wish I could have all the answers. Nothing feels the way it seems to be anymore and I'm not sure where I lost myself. I have a horrible habit of over-analyzing literally everything... and it brings me no where but down.
Most of the advice I get is to not think so much, but then I've wondered, doesn't that make me so much of who I am? I just want to be comfortable and content. I'm so far away from it. I just can't figure out what I'm missing.
Posted by anniekmonroe on 8/27/2008 4:14:00 AM (Report abuse)
I know a friend who is just like you... she's so cynical about the world and is so self-destructive. She's building up her self esteem, but what she needs is a good friend to bring her up and to not let her think about how cynical the world is.
I hope you can find that kind of person. (:
I hope you can find that kind of person. (:
Posted by Penguin on 8/24/2008 10:35:00 PM (Report abuse)
thats exactly how i feel....i hate it
Posted by wanderkid1118 on 8/24/2008 9:23:00 PM (Report abuse)
i know exactly how you feel.
Posted by an anonymous user on 8/24/2008 9:13:00 PM (Report abuse)