I am girl and feel attraction to a girl
Posted by goetheeve on 12/21/2007 2:38:00 PM
mi am 25 /f , i went to college and graduate and now i am working ,whenever i go to party or event
people ask me when you will marry ? i used to ran away from this thing in my life, i belive in marriage ,but i always have feeling of fear from the commitmet to somebody ,so i cancelled this thing from life till later ,and i am happy with my life ,not that complete happiness but at least i know that i am not ready yet ,i don't know when i will be ready ,but right now i am the one who ran a way from any relashipship,you might meet somebody single live his life like that in life ,that is me ,but all that isnot problem, the probpelm that i start to don't know myself ,last years i talked with woman through internet ,she is divorced woman ,around 26 old,she told me about her life and we beocome so close friends but we never meet offline,we know each other completely like we live each other ,and she told me everything about her self insdie out that even her people don't know like i do about her ,by times i start to feel like i am in love with her ,but we are not lesbian ,we are not ,but i start to feel like i can't live without her although she is the one who came to mylife and trust me so much ,and i start to afirad from my caring about her to discover my feeling , i start to be far from her online ,i tried to involved in work to forget her , it is painfull,and i know that hurt her too , but we have to stop this feeling at least from my side,,,, so i start my work ,with time ,my boss is female, she is married and have cute son,,i know it is funny the way i am listed people here but i need to vent,
we start to fight at the start ,she is my boss and i did many things worngs then i started to be good at work,that sometime she defend me against people since i am so soft person that i don't fight with people although i ve already gradtuae from law uni,stupid me ,,,,anyway ,i start to feel attraction to my boss !!! ,sometime i feel so need to hug her or kiss her ,i don't imagine her or have dream about her or in other meaning i don't let myself do that ,even though i have a million dreams about my early penfriend that i still love her , so i start to avoid her although she is so close to me ,that i hate myself even to think in this bad way about her and she is repetcable married woman but i start to fall in love with her ,but i am still avoid her with all my sense ,now i am in holiday i feel maybe that attrction i feel for her because we are like living togather so close everyday but i still feel love to erica ,my penfriend, it is not like i didn't feel that way to any gilr in my life beofre ,i kissed a girl in high school , we exchanged many kisses and i hugged her alot of time but it was emoatinal feeling when we were young ,really i think you will laugh about me this time and think i am lesbian , but the problem with me is that all those pople trusted me and told me thier insdie saddness , i don't understand why ,and i am not strong person, i am emotional inside and she keep entering in my life and call till the occupied my thinking ,those are three pooplewho came to my heart since childhood untill now ,or i can say those three people i was in love with ,one girl i exchangeed kissing with and i promised my self that i will never do it again,because i know that is not for good to both of us nor i will be that shoulder for her in all this life,exchaniging love and kisses will not make her better if we hugged that tid and then we left each other ,so from that time i am trying to avoid all close contact but as i already mention, thing are bugging me ,every place i go,i go so far a way and find feeling come around me,and as some poeple describe me,i have a soul of poet,
i don't know if i am talking now in other subject ,but i really don't understand how some poeple have sex without feeling of love, or lets talk more accurate ,i don't understand how some poeple rape other or abuse child sexuality or fuck by meory,they are material,when you have sex you live with other body like one ,i really don't understand those pople .
ti am sorry for this long boring post ,but i hope you all bear me, this is the only place i feel i can talk in about all my feeling toward sex .as i am shy person in this life.
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people ask me when you will marry ? i used to ran away from this thing in my life, i belive in marriage ,but i always have feeling of fear from the commitmet to somebody ,so i cancelled this thing from life till later ,and i am happy with my life ,not that complete happiness but at least i know that i am not ready yet ,i don't know when i will be ready ,but right now i am the one who ran a way from any relashipship,you might meet somebody single live his life like that in life ,that is me ,but all that isnot problem, the probpelm that i start to don't know myself ,last years i talked with woman through internet ,she is divorced woman ,around 26 old,she told me about her life and we beocome so close friends but we never meet offline,we know each other completely like we live each other ,and she told me everything about her self insdie out that even her people don't know like i do about her ,by times i start to feel like i am in love with her ,but we are not lesbian ,we are not ,but i start to feel like i can't live without her although she is the one who came to mylife and trust me so much ,and i start to afirad from my caring about her to discover my feeling , i start to be far from her online ,i tried to involved in work to forget her , it is painfull,and i know that hurt her too , but we have to stop this feeling at least from my side,,,, so i start my work ,with time ,my boss is female, she is married and have cute son,,i know it is funny the way i am listed people here but i need to vent,
we start to fight at the start ,she is my boss and i did many things worngs then i started to be good at work,that sometime she defend me against people since i am so soft person that i don't fight with people although i ve already gradtuae from law uni,stupid me ,,,,anyway ,i start to feel attraction to my boss !!! ,sometime i feel so need to hug her or kiss her ,i don't imagine her or have dream about her or in other meaning i don't let myself do that ,even though i have a million dreams about my early penfriend that i still love her , so i start to avoid her although she is so close to me ,that i hate myself even to think in this bad way about her and she is repetcable married woman but i start to fall in love with her ,but i am still avoid her with all my sense ,now i am in holiday i feel maybe that attrction i feel for her because we are like living togather so close everyday but i still feel love to erica ,my penfriend, it is not like i didn't feel that way to any gilr in my life beofre ,i kissed a girl in high school , we exchanged many kisses and i hugged her alot of time but it was emoatinal feeling when we were young ,really i think you will laugh about me this time and think i am lesbian , but the problem with me is that all those pople trusted me and told me thier insdie saddness , i don't understand why ,and i am not strong person, i am emotional inside and she keep entering in my life and call till the occupied my thinking ,those are three pooplewho came to my heart since childhood untill now ,or i can say those three people i was in love with ,one girl i exchangeed kissing with and i promised my self that i will never do it again,because i know that is not for good to both of us nor i will be that shoulder for her in all this life,exchaniging love and kisses will not make her better if we hugged that tid and then we left each other ,so from that time i am trying to avoid all close contact but as i already mention, thing are bugging me ,every place i go,i go so far a way and find feeling come around me,and as some poeple describe me,i have a soul of poet,
i don't know if i am talking now in other subject ,but i really don't understand how some poeple have sex without feeling of love, or lets talk more accurate ,i don't understand how some poeple rape other or abuse child sexuality or fuck by meory,they are material,when you have sex you live with other body like one ,i really don't understand those pople .
ti am sorry for this long boring post ,but i hope you all bear me, this is the only place i feel i can talk in about all my feeling toward sex .as i am shy person in this life.
Tags: sex, girl, lesbian, female, woman
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LIFE IS GOOD GO FOR IT
Posted by KGAOGELO on 2/23/2008 10:06:00 AM (Report abuse)
I just wanna say ,at first when i surf this site i though it is just empty place ,but with your answer i am really thankfull ,i think i found another voice not mine who tell this ,i think i need to hear this,i am not lesbian and i am relgious actually so i feel tjhat all is wrong ,thank you very much four answer ,i never thought that someone will answer my post.
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Posted by Goetheeve on 1/10/2008 3:55:00 PM (Report abuse)
Hi being a man maybe i'm out of context but anyway. I think you feel emotionally attached to a woman because they make you feel good. They listen to you and they literally make you feel in love
I'm assuming that no man has make that for you therefore your feelings and emotions makes you desire to strech out that relatioship and express (in a physical way) your emotions. Now other thing I found in women more often is that almost none knows herself in a physical way due minimun information and years and years of sex taboo. If you feel like you need to move on whit your feelings and you can express that due they are females and they will cut you out whenever they know of your "feelings"; then try a different approach making them comments that a girl approach to you and then see how they react, obviously do not express that much but something that could lead into a conversation and they if they want to expliore the subject then... you could continue. If not, then there is no more to say.
I'm assuming that no man has make that for you therefore your feelings and emotions makes you desire to strech out that relatioship and express (in a physical way) your emotions. Now other thing I found in women more often is that almost none knows herself in a physical way due minimun information and years and years of sex taboo. If you feel like you need to move on whit your feelings and you can express that due they are females and they will cut you out whenever they know of your "feelings"; then try a different approach making them comments that a girl approach to you and then see how they react, obviously do not express that much but something that could lead into a conversation and they if they want to expliore the subject then... you could continue. If not, then there is no more to say.
Posted by John Doe on 1/3/2008 5:15:00 PM (Report abuse)