I cant feel.
i cant feel.
i cant love.
after this one very very very bad experience...i just cant do it again.
now i try to avoid holding hands or act all weird if he just wants to "lay" and "talk", instead of having sex.
you see im good with the sex part.
i can do that with anyone, anywhere.
i just cant connect.
im wiling to sleep around, but the thought of being with someone freaks me out.
the first time he held my hand, i freaked and made up and excuse for him to depart.
the first time he wanted to take a picture together, i acted weird.
and i seriously doubt I'll be able to tell someone "I love you", anytime soon or ever.
i cant even say that to my friends anymore.
he's a great guy.
this sorta stuff just puts me off.
how do i fix it?
im heartless.
I've been "healing" for 10 months.
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i cant love.
after this one very very very bad experience...i just cant do it again.
now i try to avoid holding hands or act all weird if he just wants to "lay" and "talk", instead of having sex.
you see im good with the sex part.
i can do that with anyone, anywhere.
i just cant connect.
im wiling to sleep around, but the thought of being with someone freaks me out.
the first time he held my hand, i freaked and made up and excuse for him to depart.
the first time he wanted to take a picture together, i acted weird.
and i seriously doubt I'll be able to tell someone "I love you", anytime soon or ever.
i cant even say that to my friends anymore.
he's a great guy.
this sorta stuff just puts me off.
how do i fix it?
im heartless.
I've been "healing" for 10 months.
Tags: heartless
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Take a chance. It may be because you're afraid of commitment, take that leap of faith and maybe this guy will be the person you need to help you overcome what you fear. If he screws you over, then the experience is something you need to know anyways. It's what life is-- picking yourself up after you've fallen down. If you can't pick yourself up, you're ultimately useless. Take a step forward in life. It's what you need to do to grow. If you need to, take some time to recuperate before stepping up. (:
Posted by Penguin on 8/18/2008 8:51:00 AM (Report abuse)
You've had feeling before your bad experience. You just have to let loose and allow yourself to love again. Being in love is always a risk, but sometimes it's worth it, especially if you have a good guy. :)
Posted by DC on 8/17/2008 10:53:00 PM (Report abuse)
You're not heartless. You just need more time to heal.
Posted by RokkuRii on 8/15/2008 10:52:00 PM (Report abuse)