I cut myself :(

I cut myself, I hate myself for it, I hate myself anyway, I'm a selfish fat cow, sometimes I wish I was dead, I mess up everything and rewin peoples lives, I break my mum and dad's hearts, I get everything from my dad and do nothing for him, most of the teachers hate me, no one likes or talks to me in lessons, I always sit on my own, I lock myself in my room all the time, I have 3 close friends and I lie to my mum, dad, sis and friends.

I cut my wrists and my legs but mostly my wrists, I think of jumping out the window, hanging myself, cutting my wrists as deep as I can, stoping myself from breathing.Know ones knows about my thoughts not evan my cancalor.I think I do it becuse I'm alone, I hate myself, all the things I said about like I'm selfish and so on, my mum's never hear for me, no one talks to me and I dont know anymore reasons why but I'm always thinking and maybe sometimes I over think and it makes me do it.I dont understand myself and know one will, people will say how I might feel but they dont understand my thoughts or how I am, I'm always changing my mind about things I dont know why, I confuse myself and I get really bad with my words.
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anonymous user
you sound just like me listen to this http:/www.youtube.com/watch?v=tKbA-5XxN3k
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DarkSoulBieber
Call this number 1-800-448-3000 please do it your life matters and cutting yourself isnt the answer i promise you. Also, talk to your parents and tell them what your thinking no matter how mad or freaked out they might get they will always love you no matter what youve done to yourself
1 last thing, at school people will start thinking better of you when you start thinking better of you ;)
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helperlib123
I cut myself too, mainly my wrists. No one knows. My brother makes my life hell and I can't stand people at school, they are constantly putting people down. Swear I could kill them.I have three close mates but I'm slowly losing them too. I can't tell them anything either. So I know what your going through. Stay strong, love you! :)
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Elf
i cut my self to i do it out of anger i hate the world and the world hates me simple as that i just wana die sometimes i don't care how i just want to this world is a horrible place and so is my mother i hate her with all my guts my dad he is OK ughhhhhh i wish life was so much easier god what has my life come to anyway i understand where you are coming from and im right there with you love you
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MarynnPorter
Your life is the same like mine. But i talk in spanish :( so if i have an error is because i can't talk english really well. so starting.
I love to cut myself, i cut my wrist and my legs too, i have 43 cuts in only 2 months! And i wrote my history about them and one day my mom saw my notebook and she cry and cry. But was late, now im addicted and now my cuts are deeper.
My mom and my brother (i don't have father) try to help me about that, they want take me with psychologists! Oh my satan! I want to be in a psychological hospital but they don't want it -.-
Do you want to know my plan? I will kill my enemies and i will kill my mother and brother and finally i will kill myself.

Okay sorry for that jajaja i have anger issues, but for me the ''fat person'' are the best person that i know them, if you suffer bullying, you should to hit them strongly. you know? You should defend yourself from others.
And you aren't alone, anybody are alone. Because all human have love. If you love cut yourself, okay continue to do that but day and day try to make you fewer cuts and probably you will end your problem about cuts or if you want to be in a psychological hospital, you can talk about that with your mother or father whoever.

Good luck! Love you
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KarlaZavala
I love cutting. I've been a cutter for three years now and I've found it really...relieving. I am not ashamed of the many scars left from it. But sadly everyone else is trying to get me to stop. I've been going to a therapist for two years, I've gone to a behavorial hospital twice, and I'm on three different types of meds for bipolar and depression. Do I like myself? No I fucking hate myself. I'm a screw up. People love me but why? I can't see what they do. I don't want to. I was trying to be perfect for everyone. It was soooo hard! I even tried changing my fucking religion!!! But now... Well... Idk. I have lost all my friends. I hide in the restroom during break and lunch at school. I just want to be invisible. I don't want the attention at ALL! I wish I could disappear forever.... Which I can.... But I already tried and failed to commit suicide. Anyways, cutting isn't bad it's helpful. And the plus is the sight of your beautiful red blood.
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XxFallenAngelxX
i don't know you and probely never will but i know what it's like to think the world hates you and to honestly hate your self. i don't care who you are what your gender is what your sexually preferance is what you think of me. i don't care about any of it. if you ever need someone i'm always here
I. Love. You
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jnashvillie
D.L........
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Dontlookaway
oh goddess......
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deadhopes
damn it..... what an old chat
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deadhopes
hi .......
did you hear...
Its ok that you cut yourself others don't understand you, I know this from experience and I cut too a few years ago I jumped off a cliff but sadly I was saved. Causing yourself physical pain (cutting) is a way to let go of the world and let all the things stressing you out. Don't listen to those who tell you to stop it will represe you and make it worse
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lostkitten
I've been thinking about ending my life, by cutting my wrist but theirs something in side me, telling me to live on, what should i do? my family doesn't even know how i feel, they just think i'll grow out of it,its been two years, what should i do???
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thealonechild1
i cut my self too and i feel just like you i lie to just about everyone and i hate that but it is the only way i can survive, i have 2 friends that i can trust, one cut himself too, he gave me my first razor blade that i still use. :/ i will never stop it, just makes you forget about all the shit that happens in life. and too a the dicks that say "STOP" they dont know the half of our lives so just dont listen to them. councilors dont help either,
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purplepigsgomoo
i cut myself toO.. i know how you feel..
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xXAnAhIXx
i cut myself. i have a cigar box sized box full of razors and other sharp objects (//_-) i hide it behide/under my dresser. i also keep one in my walet because school is very stressful instede of cut my wrist (although sometimes i do anyway) i cut my hip. so no one sees it ive been cutting for 4 years with no sign of stopping i love without getting love back
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xXHELLFIREXx
i cut tooo
you can cheak out my secrets
im in the prosess of telling someone because i desperatly need help
your not alone. i feel sortof the same, not exctly but i understand....
and im sure lots of other people understand tooo
please dont cut....
God bless you <3
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CheRRysss
I feel like tht too all the time no one knows how or wy i wanna kill myself so i can understand i cut myself too my arms and sometimes near on my wrists just to know how it feel there if u wanna talk u can email me at perez.corina@ymail.com i can inderstand and it makes me happy im not the only one who feels like a freak cos no one understands me....i think u need someone to talk too and so do i
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