I don't even know if she'd like me.

Posted by an anonymous user on 5/27/2008 7:50:00 PM

I'm so embarrassed to say this. I'm single, 30 and female, and for over a year I've been fantasizing about Felicity Huffman. I don't even care if I'm gay, bi, or whatever. That's not the issue. It's that I have the desire for her to love me and care about me and be physically affectionate with me, and not only in a sexual way, but in a way that makes me feel safe and loved. I just want to hold on to her and for her to comfort me. I've never had anyone, male or female, care about me in "that" way. I keep thinking about Felicity being the person I could go to when I'm scared or sad and even happy. I'm embarrassed that I have this crush on someone who doesn't even know I exist. And it's so REAL I can't shake it. There's something about her that affects me so deeply and this bothers me because I don't even know if she'd like me, even though I think I'm a pretty likeable person. It would be a dream come true to be her friend but I know that's not possible. And that makes me sad. I know that's pathetic. I've never told anyone about this. On all accounts I'm a successful career woman, with a great group of friends and health, family and financial comfort. But the one thing I want most is something that it actually hurts to think about sometimes, because it makes me feel like such a loser. I don't know when I'll stop thinking about her this way; it feels like never.

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