I don't know what to do.

Posted by AntiZone on 7/6/2008 4:16:00 PM

So, I dated a girl a while back and it was the most happiest time of my life. She was the one that made me feel comfortable enough to come out of the closet. She's the one that allowed me to trust again. She's the only person I've told face-to-face that I was molested when I was 14. She's the only person I've ever allowed close to me since then. I gave her my virginity. I allowed her to touch me in ways that used to give me nightmares. I love her so much. I would take a round of bullets for her. I've never cared about someone so much before. I care about her more than I care about my family. But, she cheated on me. Left me. Lied to me. It's been 7 months, and I've watched her have 2 other girlfriends after me. She comes to me when she needs to talk. She comes to me about her relationship problems. She comes to me when she is upset. I do whatever I can to make her happy and help her...but every time I talk to her I wish I could tell her she's the world to me and that I love her. But no matter how hard I try, I'm always going to be an ex girlfriend. But every time I see her she always looks so sad when she looks at me. We'll stop whatever we're doing and look at each other and she always just looks like she's about to cry. But she doesn't want me. I know she doesn't deserve me, but I can't help it. I've tried to let her go, I've tried to move on, but I felt whole when I was with her. I don't know what to do. She's amazing, and was the definition of perfect in my eyes...I don't know what happened...I feel like I fell in love with a lie. I don't know who I've fallen in love with. Because I don't know who she is anymore.

Tags: exgirlfriend, love, cheat

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