I Feel So Insecure of My Looks.

I guess it's perfectly normal to feel this way since I came from a bitter break-up!

I know I'm not pretty.I guess I'd classify myself as average...but that's just my opinion.

Everywhere I go, beauty is perceived as goddess-like, flawless...almost (if not completely) PERFECT.

And can a normal person like me be even considered beautiful despite the fact that...

1) I'm only 5'5" yet I weigh 120 lbs.(Pretty heavy, right? People say I'm fat.)
2) I have braces on.(The more obvious metal braces...not the clear ones and a friend of mine told me I couldn't pull it off.)
3) I have a flat nose and it's ugly.(I need rhinoplasty for this.)
4) I have eyebags.(Since I stay up late thinking about a lot of things.)
5) I don't have even skin tone.
6) I've got around 10 moles on my face and even a few freckles to make it worse.
7) I've been called ugly a few times.

Yeah, the abovementioned make me feel so ugly.And maybe my ex left me behind because of this?

I really don't know.We never had a closure.But it can be a factor.

Yes, I'm sad.I thought I'd be able to sleep a moment ago but I guess I was wrong.
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Hi CrankYankers! It's been a while since I last visited secrettalk.com.

Updates:

Well, I've saved a lot of money since I now know the correct way of applying make-up, which is almost always a necessity on special occasions. :)

I lost a few pounds due to a stomach flu. But I'm fully healed now. Lol.

And oh yeah, my braces are coming off in... 2 weeks! I hope this really pushes thru! Haha. Well, that's what my orthodontist told me.

And classes here start on June 16. I'll really study hard! :D


I'm more or less okay now... Glad to find out that my ex is getting uglier and bigger. So I've been pampering myself. Haha. (I'm so mean.)

Lots love! <33

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YOu are feeling like this because of the break up....dun let this get to u.You need to think positive.I know at the moment you are too down to face things but trust me whatever happens only happens for good.
Things will shape up only when you'd want to start again.
People die and life goes on,its only a break up..try to understand that you need to end this misery and get back on your life.
Good luck
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CrankYankers - Wow, you actually learned how to apply make up on YouTube??? I should go and check it out! Haha :D
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**so that explains them putting other girls down. Haha.
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CranYankers - Thank you for the support. A lot of girls really are bitchy so that explains the them putting other girls down. Haha.

And yes, I will give myself a makeover. But I still don't know how. How. How. How. Haha.

You'll find this weird but in a way, I wanna give myself a makeover so that my ex will totally regret treating me like shit. I know the makeover is supposed to be for me, not for him. Oh well...

Lastly, I know there is such a thing as personality but let's face it, it's good to have the best of both worlds. :) Haha.
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brokendown - I'm 18 yo... Funny thing is that I thought I looked okay but now my ex is hanging out with a girl that looks like a frog. And it hurts. I was exchanged for someone who looks like my foot? So it got me thinking... maybe I look worse than I thought and I just didn't know prior to the break-up. I'm not sure, really.

iggy - No, I'm not underweight for my height. I know I'm not obese. I'm simply more on the fat side. And as mentioned above, I thought I looked okay.

I actually asked my friends about this. Of course, they told me I am beautiful in and out.

I've received compliments that I am pretty from people I meet in school and it is weird. I really don't see myself that way. Idk why but all I stressed out in the post really make me feel so ugly.

(So here's me trying to be pessimistic.) But I do hope I'll be fine... ASAP. Maybe this is just a post break-up syndrome? Lol.
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1) you might be under weight for your height, go look at a height weight chart and you'll see i'm right.
2) I have always wanted braces, i think it gives people a unique look^_^
3) Your nose might add to your beauty, like Owen Wilso he has an odd nose but his still good looking.
4) Like brokendown said Vitamin K
5) You can spray tan
6) moles and freckles have been seen as a signs of beauty for many years.
7) People only say stuff like that because they are morons!
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Honey, you don't sound ugly! You probably didn't even describe your finer points! All I saw was you talking about what you THINK are negative points. But to me freckles and moles are beautiful! Haven't you ever seen in old movies, those BEAUTIFUL actresses with moles and freckles? You know...some people DRAW moles on their faces with eyeliner? It's true, I had a friend draw one on her brow bone. But if they really bother you, you can have the moles removed and there's a trick for lightening (if not covering up) freckles.

As for your eyebags, you can get rid of those. Try some Vitamin K. It works wonders for things like stretchmarks, under eye circles, and bags. I promise.

As your nose, love, I would kill to have a flatter nose. My nose is terrible ): But if it really bothers you, like you said, get that surgery when you get older. But... how old are you? Sometimes you grow into your nose. That's why surgeons won't operate on until you're 18 and have grown into your nose.

And your ex sounds stupid for leaving you! I bet you're beautiful, and he PROBABLY was too igonorant to see that.

Trust me..you're going to be fine. <3

Love always,
<3 Lauren
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