Firstly let me explain my relationship with G (My best friend ) we have known each other for a year and have been through so much in that short time, he has always helped me, even through my eating disorder.
recently I have discovered sex.i have discovered that by having sex I feel so much better about my body and so I eat, but guys being guys take advantage of this and me being gullible believe them when they say they want more than a one night stand.
G's brother was stranded with his mate after a night out and because I live in the town centre I offered to let them sleep at mine.
G's brother is a player and I knew this even before I did my night of regret but me being gullible believe all the crap that both of them were giving me, G's brother is 3 years younger than me and has slept around and is proud of the fact and so I should have known.
when he first made his move I said no, his mate was passed out at the side of us and so I turned ova and ignored him but he kept trying and soon enough we were touching and kissing and then he got the condoms out, the first thought "your G's little brother" so why didnt I stop it right there and then.i should have stopped it, half way though G's brother invited his mate for a threesome and I still didnt say no it was just one after the other after the other, swapping ova all the time, I was caught up in the moment.and then I thought of G and how he would react but did I stop...no.when the morning came they left pretty much as soon as they opened their eyes, but as they were leaving I heard G's brother say "told you we would et a threesome last night" and I knew I had been played.
G had warned me, the one thing he told me not to do was sleep with his brother but I did it.i couldnt tell him so I stayed quite and ignored it carried on as normal but he invited me round for new years eve and so I went, as soon as his brother got there I made the excuse I wasnt feeling well I was too ashamed it had been just over a week before when we had slept together.
new years resolution, stop sleeping around, but then I got a phone call at 4 in the morning it was G, his brother had told him everything and he was so hurt and upset and I betrayed his trust.i make him sick and I just wish I could turn the clocks back and stop myself from making that huge mistake but I cant.
i want my best friend back but dont know if we ever will be friends again I have hurt him too much, friends mean everything to G and I have stabbed him in the back.
i need his friendship