I've had depression for a while.It's been on and off for about 4 years, but it's always there.Creeping up on me when I'm not looking.I hate waking up everyday.I hate my new school.HATE it.Everyone seems to hate me.I keep cutting and I just want this life to end.Death seems so much better than life.I don't want to be a whiney kid who thinks they have depression and hates everyone but guess what, I am.And I can't change that.No matter how hard I try.I can't even fake a smile anymore.I just dobn't understand this world.If I were absolutely pretty and flawless, I would be so popular, everything would just fall into place.But no.My personality sucks and everyone fucking hates me.I can't even tell my parents how I feel because I over hear them talking about me and saying how rude I am getting.Doesn't anyone understand? Not even my best friends are here for me.I told one of them I cut and she completely dismissed me.Then she replied to an Anons message about wanting to die and always cutting on tumblr? Like what the actual fuck.How can she give such great advice and say "I'm here for you' to a stranger when her best friend is about to kill herself and all she can manage is 'oh.' You know what, fuck it.Tomorrow I'll go to school and the next time someone says something mean to me, I'm doing it.I'm fed up.I'm sick of being trapped.I'm done.
