I HATE my mom.
Posted by BurnBabyBurn on 7/25/2008 12:03:00 PM
First off, my mom has bipolar disorder and ADHD, yeah i know, bad mixture.
I'm 14 and have and older sister and younger brother.
I can't stand my mom, at all. I mean yeah i love her; but the day i turn 18, im outta this fricken house. And i never wanna see her again til im like 30. Except thats gonna be hard, because i would like to see my brother a lot, you know. But idk, its just that me and her never get along and yeah. She doesnt trust me, with anything. Today, i wanted to go over my boyfriends house.. and like.. she totally flipped when i asked, she's like "what are you gonna be doing over there" And i said just hanging out, watching movies, walking outside, and i'll prolly help him with his homework [cuz honestly he's not the smartest guy.. really he's not, so yeah. And after i told her that, she freaked and was like "don't lie to me, stop lying to me, you better not be lying to me, if i find out you're lying to me, you'll get it little girl" and im like WTF whats her problem today? But i wasnt sure if she took her meds last night... but w/e. And i'm so mad at her, because she's always critizizing other people, and literally she hates EVERYONE.. or she picks at least one thing about them that she doesnt like. And see, my boyfriends mom doesnt have a job, and his brother dropped out of school, so she assumes that thats the way he's gonna turn out, and so she doesnt want me near him. I know she thinks that because she said it to my sister. And i will tell you now, i've never lied to my parents, and im always so good, i never do anything wrong, and im not a whore. So, i dont know why I always get in trouble, and they dont trust me. The reason i am with my boyfriend is that, he's sooo sweet to me, and i feel so safe with him, and like nothing could ever go wrong, and plus he knows how to deal with people like my mom, and so when anything happens, i tell him, and he makes me feel sooo much better. And my mom would never understand. And if she ever knew that he went to juvie, and that my best friend thats a girl went to juvie, she would prolly never let me leave my house. My boyfriend and i even had a whole conversation on what we were interested in, and like.. we talked about stuff. And decided, that we are very young, and it would be best just to wait, and if we were still together when we were a little older, than maybe.. but for now, no way. So thats good, but my mother never lsitens to me, and she's way to nosey. Before i met my boyfriend, i was always so depressed. But since i have him in my life, everythings been much more happier. And i can tell you, i wasnt happy... i almost thought about putting the gun to my head. And would my mom ever believe me if i said that? No. Because she knows me so well, and i lie to her all the time, and she's always right about everything, and im the one that does everything wrong, and im a whore, and cant be trusted.
Will this nightmare ever end? ...
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I'm 14 and have and older sister and younger brother.
I can't stand my mom, at all. I mean yeah i love her; but the day i turn 18, im outta this fricken house. And i never wanna see her again til im like 30. Except thats gonna be hard, because i would like to see my brother a lot, you know. But idk, its just that me and her never get along and yeah. She doesnt trust me, with anything. Today, i wanted to go over my boyfriends house.. and like.. she totally flipped when i asked, she's like "what are you gonna be doing over there" And i said just hanging out, watching movies, walking outside, and i'll prolly help him with his homework [cuz honestly he's not the smartest guy.. really he's not, so yeah. And after i told her that, she freaked and was like "don't lie to me, stop lying to me, you better not be lying to me, if i find out you're lying to me, you'll get it little girl" and im like WTF whats her problem today? But i wasnt sure if she took her meds last night... but w/e. And i'm so mad at her, because she's always critizizing other people, and literally she hates EVERYONE.. or she picks at least one thing about them that she doesnt like. And see, my boyfriends mom doesnt have a job, and his brother dropped out of school, so she assumes that thats the way he's gonna turn out, and so she doesnt want me near him. I know she thinks that because she said it to my sister. And i will tell you now, i've never lied to my parents, and im always so good, i never do anything wrong, and im not a whore. So, i dont know why I always get in trouble, and they dont trust me. The reason i am with my boyfriend is that, he's sooo sweet to me, and i feel so safe with him, and like nothing could ever go wrong, and plus he knows how to deal with people like my mom, and so when anything happens, i tell him, and he makes me feel sooo much better. And my mom would never understand. And if she ever knew that he went to juvie, and that my best friend thats a girl went to juvie, she would prolly never let me leave my house. My boyfriend and i even had a whole conversation on what we were interested in, and like.. we talked about stuff. And decided, that we are very young, and it would be best just to wait, and if we were still together when we were a little older, than maybe.. but for now, no way. So thats good, but my mother never lsitens to me, and she's way to nosey. Before i met my boyfriend, i was always so depressed. But since i have him in my life, everythings been much more happier. And i can tell you, i wasnt happy... i almost thought about putting the gun to my head. And would my mom ever believe me if i said that? No. Because she knows me so well, and i lie to her all the time, and she's always right about everything, and im the one that does everything wrong, and im a whore, and cant be trusted.
Will this nightmare ever end? ...
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thank god for your wonderful boyfriend huh! it doesnt matter if he's smart! he's keeping you happy! i wish more guys were like that.
just keep on with it until you turn 18. MAKE SURE you save your money. my parents were very strict. they wouldnt let me go to my boyfriends house. i moved out the day i turned 18.
i only had 2 grand in savings, and that money lasted me about 5 months. i also had a job.
so, if this is your mighty plan to move out and start your life somewhere else, MAKE SURE YOU CAN AFFORD IT :)
good luck with your mom. try to just ignore her when she goes crazy!
just keep on with it until you turn 18. MAKE SURE you save your money. my parents were very strict. they wouldnt let me go to my boyfriends house. i moved out the day i turned 18.
i only had 2 grand in savings, and that money lasted me about 5 months. i also had a job.
so, if this is your mighty plan to move out and start your life somewhere else, MAKE SURE YOU CAN AFFORD IT :)
good luck with your mom. try to just ignore her when she goes crazy!
Posted by Kk7 on 7/28/2008 11:45:00 AM (Report abuse)
well, it was goooood to know that u hv someone to hold on to :D so just keep yer head high up and throw the skittles to the sky and now, TASTE THE RAINBOW :)
Posted by Lisa Loise :D on 7/26/2008 3:15:00 PM (Report abuse)
I'm so sorry you have to live through that. But there's not much you can do about it until you move out when you're an adult. Try to endure the years to come as best you can, then you'll finally be free..And you'll feel great. :)
Posted by Bliss on 7/25/2008 10:48:00 PM (Report abuse)