I havent talked to my dad in 3 monthes and 1 week.
Posted by mYoWNsELF14 on 6/9/2008 12:10:00 AM
and i dont know whether or not im happy.
it's sick.
sometimes i miss him.
then ill remember all the shit i hated.
and il lbe so happy i dont talk to him.
i saw him at the grocery store the other day.
i ran out of there because i didnt want to talk to him.
hes an asshole, like a real one.
he hates me because i was fake around him for 14 years.
one day he accidentally got a little taste of hte real me, and he didnt like him.
then he got a huge dose of hte real me, and he hasnt talked to me ever since.
i dont like him at all, and he hates me with a passion.
he doesnt like who i am and he just wont contact me.
and now i am just writing , but i am just getting out my feelings.
somedays ill really really really HATE HIM.
and somedays i just wish shit could be normal again.
but then i will think about it and remember how much i hated being fake.
and how i could never be fake around him again,
but yet he would never accept the real me.
i guess this is how it's gonna be, us not talking or seeing eachother, or any contact or anything.
i guess im going to run out of the grocery store again, if i see you there again.
i feel pathetic.
thanks for ruining my otherwise amazing life, dad.
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it's sick.
sometimes i miss him.
then ill remember all the shit i hated.
and il lbe so happy i dont talk to him.
i saw him at the grocery store the other day.
i ran out of there because i didnt want to talk to him.
hes an asshole, like a real one.
he hates me because i was fake around him for 14 years.
one day he accidentally got a little taste of hte real me, and he didnt like him.
then he got a huge dose of hte real me, and he hasnt talked to me ever since.
i dont like him at all, and he hates me with a passion.
he doesnt like who i am and he just wont contact me.
and now i am just writing , but i am just getting out my feelings.
somedays ill really really really HATE HIM.
and somedays i just wish shit could be normal again.
but then i will think about it and remember how much i hated being fake.
and how i could never be fake around him again,
but yet he would never accept the real me.
i guess this is how it's gonna be, us not talking or seeing eachother, or any contact or anything.
i guess im going to run out of the grocery store again, if i see you there again.
i feel pathetic.
thanks for ruining my otherwise amazing life, dad.
Tags: dad, father, asshole, bad, daddy, parents, hatred, grocery, store
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I haven't talked to my dad in about 5 years. Even when we lived in the same city, I would small to to him, like once a year, because he didn't really wanna know who I was, and I when I showed him who I was, he got pissed. Sometimes, dad are not the most understanding people.. so let him go. It's better you live your life the way you want it, without him in your life. I know Im happier because of it!
Posted by Martin on 6/9/2008 5:33:00 PM (Report abuse)
a few years back, i hadnt talked to my dad for like 2 years. shortly after we stopped talking (and im talking we lived together and he would literally ignore me) i moved cross country and then didnt talk to him at all in the period of time between then and now. when i would visit for holidays or anything like that (which was maybe 2ce a year) we would not say a word to each other. honestly, i never really knew why my dad stopped talking to me, if it was "something i did" or what but i never cared to ask bc i thought to myself if this is the way hes gonna treat his child then fuck him, he doesnt deserve to have me in his life anyway. i really never even thought about it til a friend of mine's father got cancer and was really ill and i was like "wouldnt that really suck if that was they way things turned out and we hadnt talked at all?" still though, i didnt speak to him, i would just ask my mom how he was and tell her to tell him i said hey, when i would call their house i would cross my fingers that he didnt answer. about 7 months ago i moved back to the area and it was the weirdest thing, he was elated to see me. ive never seen him happier than he is at this point in time. i dont know if he just realized its not worth it to be a dick like that or what, but i gotta be honest, its nice to have him back. i was never what he wanted out of a daughter, he was pretty strict and proper and i was the complete opposite and i feel like the loss of "control" he felt over me may have been why he freaked out so badly and shut down. bc now hes totally accepting of me and the weirdo shit i do all the time. i dont know, i hope this helps you, even if just a little. its a rugged experience to go thru, but know that you arent doing anything wrong, and wanting to run outta the store is fine, even running out of the store is fine. im pretty sure times gonna heal this thing youve got going on, and if for some reason it doesnt, just always know that you are better than that. your life can still be amazing, believe me.*
Posted by D on 6/9/2008 1:22:00 PM (Report abuse)