Me and my ex broke up over 8 years ago.Our relationship was great, but he brought it to an abrupt end because he couldn't handle me being so far away at college.We have always remained friends, we have amazing chemistry, and we are still very attracted to one another.3 years ago or so, he got married, I partially believe it is because his wife got pregnant.I never told him the strong feelings I still had toward him, I just pretended to still only be interested in being his friend.I had a boyfriend in between the time he and his wife were still dating who I loved very much.That relationship ended, and then that is when my ex told me he was proposing to his wife.
My ex got married.I was still single.My ex and I were hanging out with some friends one night, we have always been very flirtatious with one another and one night while everyone was asleep we got comfortable.We got too comfortable, we kissed and then some, no sex.We finally expressed the feelings we still had for one another, but knew nothing could occur because he is married.We began to sneak around with each other, mainly due to the fact we enjoyed each others company.Eventually the talking and the playing turned into kissing, the kissing into touching, the touching into sex.We had a sexual relationship for some months.We were becoming secret lovers.We both knew what we were doing was wrong, but our feelings were so strong and we were so DRAWN to each other like magnets.We had a blow up and decided to end it.
Weeks went by without talking, we contacted each other and began to talk again, no sex.One night again, he was drunk, I was in love, we had sex.We had a fight, a BIGGER fight than before, we stopped talking for MONTHS.After that time he contacted me again and we were going over what had transpired basically in a year.He would get angry at me for loving him so much and he was angry because he felt the same and that there was nothing he could do.He was upset that we hadn't "kept it real" from the beginning and that we could have been together if we had just been honest with each other about our feelings.
So in the meantime I got a new boyfriend, the love of my life.I love him so much, we currently live together and we talk about getting married all the time.He is so wonderful to me and he loves me so much and I love him too.He has shown me things I never thought I would see, experience, or feel.I do believe he is my soulmate .
With all the love I have inside for my boyfriend I still have feelings toward my ex.My ex and I still communicate, we rarely see each other.We have both vowed to always keep in contact just in case in the future we are both ever single, and if we are both ever single we will be together.My ex says he will always love me and holds a special place in his heart for me.He says I am the only one who understands him and that he can have a good time with. I really try to be his friend by encouraging him to just talk to his wife and tell her how he feels and I even suggested counseling. He says she doesn't get him like I do or whatever. He says he cannot be alone with me because its so hard for him not to hug me, kiss me, or hold me.He knows that I love him and I know that he loves me.My ex knows about my current boyfriend and he is happy for me because he knows he is a better man for me than him.My ex feels like me and my boyfriend will get married as well.
I love my boyfriend with all of my heart, but I still love my ex.Whenever I talk to my ex I still get butterflies, when I see him, I feel shy and in love all over again.He makes me feel so good and again our attraction is like magnets.We are drawn to each other and we always end up talking and flirting again.I love my ex, but I know that we cannot be...HE IS STILL MARRIED and the type of person he is isn't the type of guy I should be with or SHOULD want to be with.
My boyfriend is everything I want and need.My ex should be like a distant memory right? But every time I talk to him or see him, we are back in love again.Of course my boyfriend doesn't know anything about the feelings I have for my ex, he knows that from time to time I do still communicate with my ex boyfriends, but he isn't worried about me leaving him.My boyfriend is correct, I am not going to leave him for my ex, but I just feel so guilty about still feeling for my ex.When I see my ex I want to hug him, kiss him, lay with him, sleep with him, just be in his presence.I shouldn't feel that way about any man except MY MAN right???