I make my boyfriend hit me
Posted by an anonymous user on 9/10/2008 11:14:00 PM
I've never been able to be that honest about this subject, even on a site like this, but I'm going to try my best..
I am addicted to making my boyfriend abuse me.I love provoking him and pushing his buttons and making him slap me, push me, grab me, threaten me...
But it's not like a sexual thing.We are actually genuinely fighting and arguing, and we don't have sex afterwards.
I am not a drama queen and I don't go around telling people that "oh my god, my boyfriend hit me last night" for attention.I am very ashamed of the way I am, and that I do this to myself and to my boyfriend...
I can't help it.It is almost like a high to rile him up and to feel that physical pain afterwards.I love to feel that fear that he might or might not hit me..It's exhilarating.
Luckily, he has never punched me, kicked me, or anything like that.The worst physical damage he ever did was when he slapped my face.That's it.But I mean honestly, who knows how things will turn out later? He might become crazy violent and really hurt me.
I don't know why I am the way I am.I hate myself for this.But I can't stop.
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I am addicted to making my boyfriend abuse me.I love provoking him and pushing his buttons and making him slap me, push me, grab me, threaten me...
But it's not like a sexual thing.We are actually genuinely fighting and arguing, and we don't have sex afterwards.
I am not a drama queen and I don't go around telling people that "oh my god, my boyfriend hit me last night" for attention.I am very ashamed of the way I am, and that I do this to myself and to my boyfriend...
I can't help it.It is almost like a high to rile him up and to feel that physical pain afterwards.I love to feel that fear that he might or might not hit me..It's exhilarating.
Luckily, he has never punched me, kicked me, or anything like that.The worst physical damage he ever did was when he slapped my face.That's it.But I mean honestly, who knows how things will turn out later? He might become crazy violent and really hurt me.
I don't know why I am the way I am.I hate myself for this.But I can't stop.
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im the same way its like whn your parents hit u which means he knows u are there
Posted by an anonymous user on 10/19/2008 5:43:00 PM (Report abuse)
thin line between love and hate.
Posted by an anonymous user on 10/8/2008 2:03:00 PM (Report abuse)
I had a girlfriend that loved to be spanked. I mean she loved it ! She would actually become sexually aroused and we would end up having sex. No bruises or anything..just a good pink ass.Hard to figure out why but I say no harm no foul ! I wouldn't do what you want though. Maybe try to tone it down a bit. Maybe you should learn to like yourself more. A gentleman never hits a lady.
Posted by an anonymous user on 9/25/2008 3:06:00 AM (Report abuse)
Does your boyfriend know you are causing the fights because you find the trepidation exhilerating? I think you should tell him how you feel and talk over what you can do to either stop these episodes or keep them under control. Best of luck
Posted by Lemonade on 9/12/2008 8:33:00 PM (Report abuse)
I agree with the others
get help , please
get help , please
Posted by Jotiii on 9/12/2008 3:09:00 PM (Report abuse)
was your father in your life, maybe you look at him as a father
Posted by an anonymous user on 9/11/2008 10:39:00 PM (Report abuse)
It sounds like you have some serious issues to work out. I reccommend going to a therapist and explaining this all so you can figure out why you think you should be treated like this.
Posted by asthecrowflies on 9/11/2008 8:03:00 AM (Report abuse)
You need to ge some help, girl.
He could take it to a EXTREME one time and you never know
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If he's willing to do it now. Who knows what he is capable of.
He could take it to a EXTREME one time and you never know
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If he's willing to do it now. Who knows what he is capable of.
Posted by brokendown on 9/10/2008 11:57:00 PM (Report abuse)