I want boy A, and I could get him. But, I'll stick with boyB
Posted by Alexandria1991 on 6/4/2008 8:57:00 PM
I like a boy. I want him. More than ever. I like him almost as much as I did my 7th grade crush. Which is huge.
This boy does crack, smokes pot, drinks all the time, is dropping out of high school and cuts himself. He is the most screwed up person I know, and I need him.
I know that if I were to ever get close to him I would just hurt myself more than it hurts to not be with him. So I do everything in my power to avoid him but every time he reaches out to him my attempts at escape become less and less.
I have boy B. Boy B has done every drug under the sun, drinks and smokes. He has had sex with probably every girl in northern New Jersey. I don't want him, but he is unbelievably attractive. I am with him.
We're basically dating.
I have never touched a drug, nor alcohol. I am a straight A student with a 4.3 GPA and I plan on attending NYU. Why do I need the most screwed up people? Why can't I be happy with what I have? Why do I need him?
No body will listen to me when I talk about them because they are both so obviously wrong for me. I need someone to just hear me out instead of constantly reminding me of how stupid I am, because I know.
I literally can't control myself, and I would just like some support.
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This boy does crack, smokes pot, drinks all the time, is dropping out of high school and cuts himself. He is the most screwed up person I know, and I need him.
I know that if I were to ever get close to him I would just hurt myself more than it hurts to not be with him. So I do everything in my power to avoid him but every time he reaches out to him my attempts at escape become less and less.
I have boy B. Boy B has done every drug under the sun, drinks and smokes. He has had sex with probably every girl in northern New Jersey. I don't want him, but he is unbelievably attractive. I am with him.
We're basically dating.
I have never touched a drug, nor alcohol. I am a straight A student with a 4.3 GPA and I plan on attending NYU. Why do I need the most screwed up people? Why can't I be happy with what I have? Why do I need him?
No body will listen to me when I talk about them because they are both so obviously wrong for me. I need someone to just hear me out instead of constantly reminding me of how stupid I am, because I know.
I literally can't control myself, and I would just like some support.
Tags: confusion, boys, gpa, nj, pot, help, control, attractive, sex
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whatever makes you happy, hopefully you'll get over them... just don't go that low
Posted by Will on 6/5/2008 10:02:00 PM (Report abuse)
you have all my support. But hunny these guys are not going to take you anywhere. Look at your gpa! you apparently are a very smart girl, and i know time and time you have prob heard this. They will bring you down. You are much better than that. And sometimes we do have to weed out the bad ones. And as bad as it is you need to let go. You have everything in the world going for you with that AWESOME gpa of yours! Dont let them bring you down.. Drugs never did anything good for anyone.. Babe Keep up the good work! And good luck to you!!
Posted by Cayla on 6/5/2008 10:57:00 AM (Report abuse)