I was abused, Now I am a sex addict.
Posted by an anonymous user on 5/7/2008 11:39:00 AM
All my life I have been sexually abused.
When I was 8 or 9 my Sisters ex Husband would touch my inner things and would try to touch my private parts. Once he came home and gave all his kids a kiss in the mouth and when he kissed me, he stuck his intire tongue in my mouth.
The last time this happened with him, I was about 11 or 12. I was baby sitting for my sister.
My brother came to hang out with me that is when he ex husband asked my older brother to allow him to sleep with me.
My brother immediately told me and I went home. I told my sister but she never really believed me.
When I was 13 I went to visit my family outside of the country and my older cousin would sneak into the room where I was sleeping and he would touch my private parts. Once, I woke up to him licking me in my private area. I let this happened for maybe a week until I had enough. One night he entered my room and I screamed. His mother (my cousin) said I seduced him. I was only 13! He was 14.
Then after all that, I have caught men in the street parked in their cars masturbating and being nasty perverts.
yet, after all of this, I think I have become numb. I am a sex addict. my father was not in my life, so when I am with men, I call them, "daddy" and want all there attention.
I like being with different men to know I am wanted.
I need to have sex to know I am wanted and loved.
Tags: sex, abuse, confused, addict
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When I was 8 or 9 my Sisters ex Husband would touch my inner things and would try to touch my private parts. Once he came home and gave all his kids a kiss in the mouth and when he kissed me, he stuck his intire tongue in my mouth.
The last time this happened with him, I was about 11 or 12. I was baby sitting for my sister.
My brother came to hang out with me that is when he ex husband asked my older brother to allow him to sleep with me.
My brother immediately told me and I went home. I told my sister but she never really believed me.
When I was 13 I went to visit my family outside of the country and my older cousin would sneak into the room where I was sleeping and he would touch my private parts. Once, I woke up to him licking me in my private area. I let this happened for maybe a week until I had enough. One night he entered my room and I screamed. His mother (my cousin) said I seduced him. I was only 13! He was 14.
Then after all that, I have caught men in the street parked in their cars masturbating and being nasty perverts.
yet, after all of this, I think I have become numb. I am a sex addict. my father was not in my life, so when I am with men, I call them, "daddy" and want all there attention.
I like being with different men to know I am wanted.
I need to have sex to know I am wanted and loved.
Tags: sex, abuse, confused, addict
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I am 23. how old are you?
Posted by The person who posted this on 5/8/2008 10:51:00 AM
i know exactly how you feel, a similar thing happened to me and now i am addicted to sex as well, i actually posed about it but i left out he abuse part... i dont like to talk about it much... anyway you are not alone ... how old are you??
Posted by Blackandwhite21 on 5/7/2008 9:50:00 PM