I Wrote You A Letter

Posted by an anonymous user on 6/12/2008 9:01:00 PM

I might not want to date you, and I might not love you in a romantic way, but I still love you more then I ever thought I could love another person. I like being around you, wherever we are, no matter what happens, I know that just seeing you can make me feel better. Like when I was on the verge of crying in the hallway and I wouldn't take my eyes of the ground beneath me. You just stared at me and I could tell you were trying to figure out what was wrong and wanting to ask me but everyone else kept talking. So then you just walked up and hugged me, and I already started to feel better. Just knowing that I have met you, just knowing that at one point I was your best friend makes me happy. But then I also feel sad knowing that we are ever so slowly drifting apart because you're becoming closer with other people. I can feel it happening, I know you can too and it kills me inside. I don't want to fade into the background like I have so many times before. All I want is to spend my life with you as friends forever. I have this odd attachment to you and I always told myself that I would never let myself get this close to somebody and truly trust someone because then you're backed into a corner of pain and betrayal, but I let myself trust you. And even if I'm not one of your best best friends anymore, you still mean a lot to me. I still trust you, I still think of you as one of my amazing best friends, I still love you. And I know that we are still close friends, just not as close as we used to be. My heart is aching and I'm holding my arms across my chest to try and hold together the few pieces that are left of my crumbling soul. I want to know if you still trust me like you used to. I don't think I've done anything to betray your trust, there was just a time when I tried to distance myself from you because I didn't like feeling so vulnerable, it makes me worry. So listen to me, please. Just let me explain why I tried to push you away, hear me out and welcome me back into the warmest places in your heart. Please...Somewhere inside me I have this odd hope that you will be lame enough to have an account on this and you'll come across this letter thing. And you'll read it and you'll know who I am, you'll recognise the way I phrase things and smile and call me and come to my house and we can be best friends again. I hate that this empty space between us is just getting bigger and bigger, especially when there is no obvious reason for it. I need you, I miss you, can't you see that? Just come back to me...

Tags: love, you, letter, depression, trust

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