Everything has been falling apart.I'm depressed all day, everyday now.I have a lot of trouble talking to people about my problems.Everything has just been locked up inside eating at me.I realized a week ago that I'm exactly like my mother and if that's true then I'm going to be miserable the rest of my life.It's gotten to the point where I can't stop thinking about my own misery.Lately I've been thinking a lot about different ways of suicide and I just can't see another way out.Don't tell me I have something to offer the world because I don't.I've been secretly screwing people behind their backs for a few years because it makes me feel a little better.Nobody knows who I really am.Everyone I know has nothing but nice things to say about me when I'm actually the reason my parents are struggling financially, why my grandma's in the hospital again, and a few of the times my parents threatened divorce.I've become this awful person because I've been depressed my entire life, I want to change but I know I can't.It's just hopeless.
