I'll never be a star in your sky

Posted by an anonymous user on 6/30/2008 8:58:00 PM

You know, its kind of hard sitting hear as a best friend and listening to how your relationship is going so well. Not that I don't want you to be happy, of course not! More like, I'm jealous and don't really need to know about your sex life etc. You're the only thing I've got. You're me, but a boy. You're the legs that I stand on when my own buckle beneath me. But boy, you really know how to work me. Sometimes you make me so angry just because of how blind you have been. All those times you hinted at me, and I hinted back in ways that only you should notice. Even then you let it slip. Even now I still try. livejournal.com saved us. But now I can't bring myself to finish reading your entries when they're about her. I know you love me and I know you'll always be there for me. But I just can't help but wish that I was the girl in the paragraph before. The one that makes her heart flip something crazy with just her smile. That one that...fuck it. Who am I kidding? I'll never be a star in your sky.

"When we lie on your bed and you label me a friend, don't you know how much that hurts?"

You're so beautiful. I love you, boy. xxx

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