Im 18 and an alcoholic.

It does not matter what kind of life you come from... Alcoholism affects everyone
I come from a family of ALL alcoholics and i was taught to not drink.. but when i took my first shot
it was love at first drink. Now all i think about is when i can get my next fix and if i will be able to hide it from my mom. My best friend does not see that i need help and my other best friends is the
person that supplies me with my drinks. I wish i could stop, but then again i LOVE it to much to stop...I have gone though so much and alcohol it the only thing that has been there for me.
and now i have fallen for a guys that is a huge asshole and the bottle has never been such a bright sight in my life.

My only fear for you and I is that alcohol will stop satisfying the pain and we will move on to something worst.

hey girl I'm in the same boat. only I'm 26 and have been drinking heavily almost every night for about 3 yrs. I am married and my husband and I drink together. But I find myself drinking more than him and somtimes sneaking shots when he isn't looking. We are leaving on a vacation to Mexico for a week tomorrow and after that I am going to make some life changes. I badly want to have children and am about 40-50 lbs. overweight. I am sure when I cut back on drinking I will loose alot of it, unless I replace it with food, I hope not!! LOL! But my advise is Maybe its time to move out and change your environment so your parents don't tempt you. Instead of drinking booze drink tea or something so that way you still have the oral fixation. Go for a walk if you feel like drinking, or to a movie. I like to do puzzles so I am gonna get back into that myself and try to only drink on the weekends. If you want we could keep each other accountable. Just write me back on here if you want to. I will be back in a week so I'll check back with you then. Good luck.

i know what your going through, i was there. and if you think your young i was only 16. I am 18 now and proud to say i am 2 years and 3 months sober. The only way you will ever stop is if you figure out why you are drinking in the first place. Many people can drink just for fun, but people like us have addictive personalities, and it runs in famlies (my dad is an alchoholic) so once we start, no matter why we do in the first place it is next to impossible to stop. The first step is admitting you have a problem, which you have done. The reason you dont want help is because theres a reason why your drinking, you are using it to hide from another problem you arent willing to deal with. Mine was depression. The only reason i stopped was because one night while drinking at a party i was drugged and raped, everyone tells you not to let anyone else get you a drink at a party, and i wasnt dumb, but once i had my first couple i was willing to do anything to get drunk, which meant letting a guy i didnt know pour me a drink.. ever since that night i have associated drinking with my rape and never want to do it again.. no matter how awful it was it was what i needed to stop, hopefully you can do it on your own, hopefully you can make the choice to better your life and health. good luck, ill pray for you

why is drinking alone so much better than in company? i love to get drunk, but only when im with my friends.. girl, you should do something about it before its too late..