I'm a Mess
Posted by Amore on 9/29/2008 7:06:00 PM
I really am.I'm bi-polar, possibly schitzophrenic, ana/mia, I've been molested and raped by people I loved more than life it self, I've tried to kill myself 3 times, ending up in two comas, and month long stays in the hospital.I can't say no to sex, so I've had had sex with over 8 people and I'm only 17.I have scars all over my right arm and leg from when I used to cut.I'm afraid of getting a car because it'll be that much easier to make myself crash.I'm still possibly in love with my rapist even though there's noone I'm more afraid of.I'm going into a rehab program.I wish I had the money for hardcore drugs so I could ruin my life becuase after everything bad that's happened to me I deserve a ruined life.I'm afraid that when I get my job that that is exactly what is going to happen.So yeah, over all, I'm a mess.
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your fucked
ha ha
ha ha
Posted by an anonymous user on 10/1/2008 11:31:00 PM (Report abuse)
im so sorry ur life is so hard!!! i kno u probably have treid this, but try jus starting over. dump that boyfriend rapist of urs and get out of that situaton! get a new boyfriend who cares for ur body and feeling and would never hurt u. try finding some new friends as well, possibly in situations similar to ur own. u can try 2 seek help at different groups and counselling. im a teenager 2, and i hav problems as well. but just try as hard as u can 2 get urself out of this situation! i love u! stay strong and just start a new clean page in ur life. forget all the past and i wish u the best of luck!!! :-)
Posted by denali1723 on 10/1/2008 6:14:00 AM (Report abuse)
You ignore the good that is in your life. Even if you don't notice it, purposefully making it worse will hurt the people who love you (and don't say that there isn't, because there is) and it will make it harder for you to stand up and believe in yourself.
Trust YOU, trust who you CAN be, not what you think you are and what you think you can't be. You DO deserve better, you always do. Don't deny yourself what you think you need to do to "punish" yourself even if you honestly haven't done anything wrong at all.
Rehab will help you, it'll make you clean, and there they have counselors that will always listen to your problems. If you are schizophrenic and bi-polar, they can help.
Trust YOU, trust who you CAN be, not what you think you are and what you think you can't be. You DO deserve better, you always do. Don't deny yourself what you think you need to do to "punish" yourself even if you honestly haven't done anything wrong at all.
Rehab will help you, it'll make you clean, and there they have counselors that will always listen to your problems. If you are schizophrenic and bi-polar, they can help.
Posted by Penguin on 9/29/2008 8:43:00 PM (Report abuse)