Im afraid i'll seriously hurt someone
Posted by an anonymous user on 6/26/2008 2:22:00 AM
I wont let my self be near a knife, gun or car for that matter, because I am afraid i will kill someone. I am 17 and still havent gotten my permit because I am afraid of what I might do with the car once i drive it. Im afraid to hold a gun because I get this strange urge to shoot myself, but i dont want to die so I then want to kill everyone else. Sometimes at dinner when im cutting my food, i just want to stab my knife right through the person across from me. I just really like cutting things- altho i have never cut myself or anyone else. I told my self I will not play lacrosse anymore, because I'm afraid I am going to whack someone across the head with my stick.
why do i feel like this?
I feel this way, but I know I will never do any of this,....i think
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why do i feel like this?
I feel this way, but I know I will never do any of this,....i think
Tags: kill, death
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omg, ill pray for your impulses! i cant imagine how hard that must be for you! god knows what you're going through, try tslking to him...= )
Posted by an anonymous user on 9/4/2008 5:48:00 PM (Report abuse)
man ur like a wannabe tyler durden, but more than likely full of shit
Posted by God on 7/3/2008 2:37:00 PM (Report abuse)
No body, no crime.
Posted by Anonomni on 6/30/2008 1:22:00 PM (Report abuse)
Don't listen to these people, and fuck that Ami girl. I know how you feel, I was right there. Since about 9 I've felt that and fought it for years. I was plagued with these contradicting throughts that I shouldn't do these things, and it caused alot of stress. But you will realize, as I did, that it is not from you these stressful thoughts come from, it is from years of ingrained BULLSHIT telling us that we are wrong for our impulses. Guilt is just a word to me that I never actually understood, I just knew I should be feeling something but wasn't. We are not like them, we are better. We can see the big picture and take the necessary actions when needed.
I enjoy inflicting pain, I enjoy watching others in pain, I enjoy the feel of blood on my hands or the crackling pop of breaking bones being further shattered. I don't live for it, but it sure as shit brightens my day. Now you can't go irrationally stabbing and maiming people because thats how you get caught, quick. Be patient, conserve, and plan. Find new ways to statisfy those hungers. (*See posts "cry for help" "moved on to a sobbing" and hobo killer for some of my notions) But don't be afraid of getting your ass kicked once in awhile. Sometimes things don't go as planned and you must improvise. Thing about people like us though is they (whoever) never expect the normal looking ones like me (maybe you) to be actually trained to fight, know how to handle a blade, or be scrappy/dirty enough to fight like we do. Once I feined being down just so the drunk would turn his back to me, exposing his soft achilles tendon. Have you ever seen a calf rolled up into a ball at the back of someone's knee joint and heard their cries, its a beautiful thing.
Take defense classes and know how to handle yourself at the very least. Then if you end up acting on your impulses, you will come out on top.
I enjoy inflicting pain, I enjoy watching others in pain, I enjoy the feel of blood on my hands or the crackling pop of breaking bones being further shattered. I don't live for it, but it sure as shit brightens my day. Now you can't go irrationally stabbing and maiming people because thats how you get caught, quick. Be patient, conserve, and plan. Find new ways to statisfy those hungers. (*See posts "cry for help" "moved on to a sobbing" and hobo killer for some of my notions) But don't be afraid of getting your ass kicked once in awhile. Sometimes things don't go as planned and you must improvise. Thing about people like us though is they (whoever) never expect the normal looking ones like me (maybe you) to be actually trained to fight, know how to handle a blade, or be scrappy/dirty enough to fight like we do. Once I feined being down just so the drunk would turn his back to me, exposing his soft achilles tendon. Have you ever seen a calf rolled up into a ball at the back of someone's knee joint and heard their cries, its a beautiful thing.
Take defense classes and know how to handle yourself at the very least. Then if you end up acting on your impulses, you will come out on top.
Posted by Relatable on 6/30/2008 1:20:00 PM (Report abuse)
Please seek help immediately.
You're not a bad person, but it sounds like you have some kind of psychopathic complex which needs to be checked before you hurt anyone.
You might have a problem with your neurochemistry.
Good luck.
You're not a bad person, but it sounds like you have some kind of psychopathic complex which needs to be checked before you hurt anyone.
You might have a problem with your neurochemistry.
Good luck.
Posted by Ami on 6/26/2008 9:52:00 AM (Report abuse)
Dont kill yuh self or Any1 else.
All it will do would get yuh even more stressed out and yuh could even be in big trouble!!!!!
So dont do it!!!!
Please take my Advice !!!!
love Amber b
All it will do would get yuh even more stressed out and yuh could even be in big trouble!!!!!
So dont do it!!!!
Please take my Advice !!!!
love Amber b
Posted by Amber b on 6/26/2008 3:52:00 AM (Report abuse)
thats a very siriouse matter but you shuldnt kill any1 bcz its nasty and you can get help so plz think before wat yu do xx
Posted by Becki beal on 6/26/2008 3:49:00 AM (Report abuse)