I'm afraid...
Of myself.Of being alone.Of making more mistakes.Of loving but not feeling loved.Of just being so beaten down that I might not be able to rise back up again.I'm afraid I might realize I'm not good enough for myself.Of this pain never going away.Of waking up 10 years from now just to realize I have to live with the me I despise.
I really appreciate and respect all of you that have been so supportive and kind:
Gul, Cookiemonster, Brokendown, fourfourtyfour, bnwranbo, Crankyankers, napalm, and I know there are others I am missing but too tired to think anymore...You've really helped me in ways you couldn't imagine.I only pray that I could repay the favor, or that Karma will pay her dues and give you the same in return.
I'm just afraid I live in this reality to escape the facade I have to play daily.
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I really appreciate and respect all of you that have been so supportive and kind:
Gul, Cookiemonster, Brokendown, fourfourtyfour, bnwranbo, Crankyankers, napalm, and I know there are others I am missing but too tired to think anymore...You've really helped me in ways you couldn't imagine.I only pray that I could repay the favor, or that Karma will pay her dues and give you the same in return.
I'm just afraid I live in this reality to escape the facade I have to play daily.
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I'll take stupid anytime. Good thing I don't really give a f**k about what anyone else likes or doesn't like...It's nice to have my own opinion. I don't really agree with what anonymous said, though, because as much as it is true that we are born alone and die alone, we LIVE with others by our side...that includes you, Gul. Thank you, yet again, friend.
Posted by lonelynforgotten on 7/5/2009 12:55:00 AM (Report abuse)
Well i like what this anonymous user said about being alone.By the way you know sometimes stupid people can help too..lol
Anyways,My beautiful friend,you are letting this dwell on you and its gonna be tough if you it on.Somethings are not worth it,and you thinking about the future has no meaning.Things seldom go as we plan them so let go with the flow,let time suggest you how its gonna be.But michelle you got have a positive approach to you hopes.I dunno but it somehow helps you to think better.If you really wish to repay us then there is only one way to.....Chin up,have a different opinion about future,Smile and enjoy what you have...please do this favour for us :)
Anyways,My beautiful friend,you are letting this dwell on you and its gonna be tough if you it on.Somethings are not worth it,and you thinking about the future has no meaning.Things seldom go as we plan them so let go with the flow,let time suggest you how its gonna be.But michelle you got have a positive approach to you hopes.I dunno but it somehow helps you to think better.If you really wish to repay us then there is only one way to.....Chin up,have a different opinion about future,Smile and enjoy what you have...please do this favour for us :)
Posted by gul on 7/4/2009 10:06:00 AM (Report abuse)
You got to fight this off.We come alone and we go alone,so this is really a part of us.We just have to accept it to have a better vision of our lives to be.
I have noone and i have accepted it and it sure feels better.
People you mentioned,Gul is stupid,I don't like her.
Napalm and her pimp,CrankYankers are potty mouths,can't imagine they can help.
I have noone and i have accepted it and it sure feels better.
People you mentioned,Gul is stupid,I don't like her.
Napalm and her pimp,CrankYankers are potty mouths,can't imagine they can help.
Posted by an anonymous user on 7/2/2009 11:57:00 PM (Report abuse)