Im not supposed to tell..
Posted by iTRYnot2cry on 4/10/2008 7:05:00 PM
my family consists of my mom, dad, my brother, and me.
my dad and my mom are still living together, and wont declare divorce.
my dad has had atleast 2 girl friends and one is always around the house and one of my nannies is really good friends with her
last year i got really depressed and finally came out and told my parents i was having suicidal thoughts.
my dad said i just wanted attention
then that summer i started cutting
i had been cutting for almost half a year and one of my nannies noticed and told my dad
my dad just got mad at me told me i was an idiot and that wat i was doing was bull.. the whole jist of it was that my dad said
i just wanted attention
now every one thinks im happy and over it but i still try so hard not to kill myself, and im scared to tell my parents that ive been having panic attacks sometimes several times a day, because i think my dad will just say i want attention.
and im to scared to tell my friends.
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my dad and my mom are still living together, and wont declare divorce.
my dad has had atleast 2 girl friends and one is always around the house and one of my nannies is really good friends with her
last year i got really depressed and finally came out and told my parents i was having suicidal thoughts.
my dad said i just wanted attention
then that summer i started cutting
i had been cutting for almost half a year and one of my nannies noticed and told my dad
my dad just got mad at me told me i was an idiot and that wat i was doing was bull.. the whole jist of it was that my dad said
i just wanted attention
now every one thinks im happy and over it but i still try so hard not to kill myself, and im scared to tell my parents that ive been having panic attacks sometimes several times a day, because i think my dad will just say i want attention.
and im to scared to tell my friends.
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First of all you are too precious to end your life. Second of all it is NOT your job to carry that secret around. I know you love your dad and mom, but their relationship is their business. Just be a kid. Too soon you will grow up and have to deal with real life. I am sure your mom already knows. She may not admit it, but women know when their spouse cheats on them.
As far as your dad's reaction to your mental health issues, well, sometimes dads dont' know how to handle when their children aren't happy. Many men don't know how to be caring with sensitive subjects. Obviously your dad has issues of his own if he has two girlfriends and a wife. Go to see a counselor. Even if it is one at school or church. Talk to a teacher or someone. Their are laws that will keep your information private and your parents will not be told.
God bless you and your family. You are in my prayers. Trust that God will lead you to where you need to be.
As far as your dad's reaction to your mental health issues, well, sometimes dads dont' know how to handle when their children aren't happy. Many men don't know how to be caring with sensitive subjects. Obviously your dad has issues of his own if he has two girlfriends and a wife. Go to see a counselor. Even if it is one at school or church. Talk to a teacher or someone. Their are laws that will keep your information private and your parents will not be told.
God bless you and your family. You are in my prayers. Trust that God will lead you to where you need to be.
Posted by DAH651 on 4/20/2008 10:14:00 PM (Report abuse)
sometimes in life we have to make some really tough decisons. I think your mom has the right to know. dying on the inside is an awful thing. For all you know with your mom knowing could end up bringing your family closer. Sometimes the right decisions arent always easy. If he is cheating it is because there is something missing in thier marriage. And you wouldnt want something worse to happen to your mom like get sexually transmitted diseases.
Posted by Some one who cares on 4/14/2008 4:34:00 PM (Report abuse)
you really need to talk to someone. talk to someone at school, or tell your family doctor and they could refer you to someone.
i know parents sometimes just dont understand. dont let your father get to you.
you want help, you realize that you have a problem. you need to get help. do it for you.
i have been in the same situation. i am on anti-depressants and my dad thinks its ridiculous.
but i feel a lot better and that's what counts. so please go and get help. you're not alone.
i know parents sometimes just dont understand. dont let your father get to you.
you want help, you realize that you have a problem. you need to get help. do it for you.
i have been in the same situation. i am on anti-depressants and my dad thinks its ridiculous.
but i feel a lot better and that's what counts. so please go and get help. you're not alone.
Posted by Victoria on 4/14/2008 10:03:00 AM (Report abuse)
I know what you are going through is really hard, but you have to tell someone. By not telling anyone you are just making the situation worse... letting it get bottled up inside is the worst. Find someone that you can absolutely trust and tell them. A friend, your mom, brother... anyone.
You also need to realize that cutting yourself is serious and it's actually a really good thing that you want help, take a risk and convince someone that you need it.
I know what you have written there has seemed to consume your life but that can't be it. Find something or someone who can bring out the positive things that you may not really notice. From what I've learned, it is the smallest things in life that can make everything all better.
I'm not a spiritual person but i really reccomend the book Small Graces.
Everything will be okay, there are people who care about you.
You also need to realize that cutting yourself is serious and it's actually a really good thing that you want help, take a risk and convince someone that you need it.
I know what you have written there has seemed to consume your life but that can't be it. Find something or someone who can bring out the positive things that you may not really notice. From what I've learned, it is the smallest things in life that can make everything all better.
I'm not a spiritual person but i really reccomend the book Small Graces.
Everything will be okay, there are people who care about you.
Posted by -- on 4/11/2008 10:10:00 PM (Report abuse)