Im so sick and tired of being unhappy

I'm tired of being unhappy with myself, my life and just everything, I'm so through with crying in the middle of the night because I don't know what I want to do with my life

I'm tired of being scared to leave the house because people are just plain ignortant YES I AM FAT I KNOW THIS YOU DON'T HAVE TO REMIND ME THIS EVERYDAY YOU SCUMBAG, I'm tired of feeling ugly because you think I am, THE TRUTH OF THE MATTER IS IM NOT UGLY AT ALL AS MATTER OF FACT I AM A BEAUTIFULL YOUNG LADY AND I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN ITS JUST PEOPLE LIKE YOU WHO BREAK ME DOWN AND MAKE ME FEEL LIKE CRAP, I ADMIT I COULD LOSE A FEW POUNDS BUT IF DO LOSE WEIGHT ITS GOING TO BE FOR ME FROM NOW ON, NOT YOU NOT YOUR STUPID ASS FRIENDS ME! ! ! BECAUSE THIS IS MY LIFE NOT YOURS

IM SO TIRED OF NOT BEING ABLE TO SHOW THE REAL ME BECAUSE OF WHAT SOMEONE MAY SAY
I DONT CARE ANYMORE SCREW YOU THIS IS ME I AM 21 YEARS OLD NOT 16 ANYMORE SO STOP TREATING ME LIKE I AM, IM NOT SHY AT ALL AS MATTER A FACT I AM VERY OUTGOING AND FUNNY AND SMART AND ALSO TALENTED

IM SO TIRED OF PEOPLE TELLING ME I CAN'T BE A HIP HOP DANCER BECAUSE I GAINED TO MUCH WEIGHT
UGH YOU WATCH ME YOU SIMPLE MINDED SON OF A BITCH IM GOING TO BE A DANCER AND WHEN I BECOME ONE YOU CAN KISS MY ASS YOU ALL CAN

I HATE THE FACT THAT THIS IS MY SECOND TIME BEING IN SCHOOL TO BECOME A MEDICAL ASSISTANT AND I STILL WON'T BE GRADUATING BECAUSE SOMETHING IS HOLDING ME BACK, SOMETHING IS ALWAYS HOLDING ME BACK AND I THINK THAT SOMETHING MAY BE ME, BUT THATS GOING TO CHANGE NOW INSTEAD OF HOLDING MYSELF BACK IM GOING TO PUSH MY SELF TO MY FULLEST POTENTIAL, BECAUSE I KNOW I COULD DO ANYTHING BUT IM ALWAYS HOLDING MYSELF BACK AND I HAVE TO STOP AND REALIZE THAT I CAN DO IT NOT ONLY WITH SCHOOL BUT WITH EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE,

I HATE THE FACT THAT I HAVE NEVER HAD A REAL BOYFRIEND BECAUSE I PULL A WAY FROM GUYS AND ANY SITUATION THAT HAS TO DO WITH A GUY ASKING ME OUT , REALLY GREAT GUYS WHO LIKE ME FOR ME, BUT BECAUSE OF MY INSECURENESS I PUSH THEM AWAY, I WANT TO BE LOVED BY SOMEONE I REALLY DO ITS JUST A MATTER OF LETTING THEM IN

I HATE MYSELF FOR LISTENING TO PEOPLE WHO TELL ME THAT IM NEVER GOING TO BE ANYTHING AND IM NEVER GOING TO HAVE ANYTHING WHY DO I CONTINUE TO LISTEN WHY WHY WHY?????

I LOVE MYSELF SO MUCH AND I WILL NEVER LET ANYONE ELSE MAKE FEEL INFERIOR AGAIN

ITS TIME FOR ME TO STEP UP AND TAKE CONTROL OF MY LIFE AND STOP LETTING PEOPLE TELL ME THAT IM NOT GOOD ENOUGH BECAUSE I TRULY KNOW NOW THAT I AM, I ALWAYS WAS AND IT JUST TOOK TIME FOR ME TO REALIZE THIS
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anonymous user
o wel timez to kill selfz..hah poopsies.....
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supertroll
good for you :) stay strong, and knock down any barrier you come across, keep fighting
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