Staying up as late as possible, distracting myself, trying not to feel depressed.Once I stop, I get this gut-wrenching sadness.I actually feel physically sick, almost delirious from feeling so trapped and helpless.I hate feeling so desperate, so weak.I must sound really stupid, but I don't know what else to do but write these things out.
Funny, I seem to be getting worse, rather than better.I'm not addicted to my meds or anything, but I feel like I need to take more.They just don't work anymore.I need SOMETHING to ease the ache that's almost always present.I can't keep going on like this.I have no idea how to start being happy again.
