In love with a married women

I guess the only advice I can give would be to try and distance yourself from her and keep your mind occupied with other things.

I can feel your pain because I am going through a similar situation. I have been straight all my life and then unexpectedly found myself attracted to a women who is more than 10 years younger. I'm not talking just sexual attraction, but all of the above....it was like an instant connection that I have never felt before. I think about her every day. When I close my eyes and think about being with her I get butterflies in my stomach. The worst part is, she is married to my cousin who I love dearly. Her and I have grown so close and have become best friends. We have shared looks, staredowns, and makeout sessions that would put a romance novel to shame. We also had one night together that was awesome in everyway. I have told her how I feel and she feels the same, but It's not a line she is willing to cross at this point. I struggle to remain friends with her because I will always want more. I have tried to distance myself, but then she calls and I melt. I guess my only hope is that I fall in love with someone else...