It's getting so difficult to deal with.
Posted by AntiZone on 7/6/2008 4:19:00 PM
So, I dated a girl a while back and it was the most happiest time of my life. She was the one that made me feel comfortable enough to come out of the closet. She's the one that allowed me to trust again. She's the only person I've told face-to-face that I was molested when I was 14. She's the only person I've ever allowed close to me since then. I gave her my virginity. I allowed her to touch me in ways that used to give me nightmares. I love her so much. I would take a round of bullets for her. I've never cared about someone so much before. I care about her more than I care about my family.
But, she cheated on me. Left me. Lied to me. It's been 7 months, and I've watched her have 2 other girlfriends after me. She comes to me when she needs to talk. She comes to me about her relationship problems. She comes to me when she is upset. I do whatever I can to make her happy and help her...but every time I talk to her I wish I could tell her she's the world to me and that I love her. But no matter how hard I try, I'm always going to be an ex girlfriend.
But every time I see her she always looks so sad when she looks at me. We'll stop whatever we're doing and look at each other and she always just looks like she's about to cry. But she doesn't want me. I know she doesn't deserve me, but I can't help it. I've tried to let her go, I've tried to move on, but I felt whole when I was with her.
I don't know what to do. She's amazing, and was the definition of perfect in my eyes...I don't know what happened...I feel like I fell in love with a lie. I don't know who I've fallen in love with. Because I don't know who she is anymore. I don't know what to do.
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But, she cheated on me. Left me. Lied to me. It's been 7 months, and I've watched her have 2 other girlfriends after me. She comes to me when she needs to talk. She comes to me about her relationship problems. She comes to me when she is upset. I do whatever I can to make her happy and help her...but every time I talk to her I wish I could tell her she's the world to me and that I love her. But no matter how hard I try, I'm always going to be an ex girlfriend.
But every time I see her she always looks so sad when she looks at me. We'll stop whatever we're doing and look at each other and she always just looks like she's about to cry. But she doesn't want me. I know she doesn't deserve me, but I can't help it. I've tried to let her go, I've tried to move on, but I felt whole when I was with her.
I don't know what to do. She's amazing, and was the definition of perfect in my eyes...I don't know what happened...I feel like I fell in love with a lie. I don't know who I've fallen in love with. Because I don't know who she is anymore. I don't know what to do.
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your too good for her.
Posted by Demi-oooo on 7/10/2008 2:02:00 AM (Report abuse)
This might not be much help, but Ive been that other girl who was with someone and ended up having to leave her for someone else. Although in my case I told her up front I was with someone before we dated, but in the end it hurt her more then she ever let on in the beginning. It's up to you to make a choice.
We still talk, and we are as close as ever and the best of friends, but it's probably one of the most painful friendships I've ever had. We sometimes forget that we aren't together anymore. But we made the choice to still be in each others lives, but it's a fine line.
So you can either try to be exgirlfriend that she talks to when she is upset and find a medium where you accept that it might always be that way. Or you permanently move on and never look back.
It will hurt either way though.
We still talk, and we are as close as ever and the best of friends, but it's probably one of the most painful friendships I've ever had. We sometimes forget that we aren't together anymore. But we made the choice to still be in each others lives, but it's a fine line.
So you can either try to be exgirlfriend that she talks to when she is upset and find a medium where you accept that it might always be that way. Or you permanently move on and never look back.
It will hurt either way though.
Posted by That One Girl on 7/7/2008 4:14:00 AM (Report abuse)