Just want to scream
Posted by an anonymous user on 5/27/2008 9:47:00 PM
I just need to tell someone these secrets...
I hate the fact that everytime my dad calls me i wont pick up or wont want to call him back.
Ive stole alot of clothes from macys once and i couldnt live with myself so i finally told my boyfriend but i only told him i took one shirt that was 10 dollars... that was a lie and still feel bad about it till this day.
Somedays i just want to get hurt where i would have to get put in the hospital.. Just to see who would visit me first
I think that my boyfriend loves me the most when i am giving him a hand job. .
I stare at girls upper lips to see if they have mustaches.. most of them do!
When i am with my boyfriend and i look at him and i feel like ive never seen him in my life... isnt that so sad?
( ive known him for 4 years and we've been together 18 months)
I used to cut myself for most of 8th grade year and i was bulimic
There is a line of cheaters in my family, im afraid i will be just like them
I keyed two cars the other day and it was the most liberating thing!
My parents went out of town for a week, and i took my moms car for a ride to burger king and got in a car accident.. But nobody every found out.
Ive walked in on my sister giving her ex boyfriend a blow job
I wonder what my friends dicks look like.
My dad has smoked pot my entire life and he watched my neighbors have sex through a window
I am only 17 and desperately want to be a mom, just to have something to take care and will love me unconditionally just for being me.
ahhhh well i think i feel better already.. i will post more later, thanks for reading!
Tags: dad, gulit, cheating, boyfriend, love
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I hate the fact that everytime my dad calls me i wont pick up or wont want to call him back.
Ive stole alot of clothes from macys once and i couldnt live with myself so i finally told my boyfriend but i only told him i took one shirt that was 10 dollars... that was a lie and still feel bad about it till this day.
Somedays i just want to get hurt where i would have to get put in the hospital.. Just to see who would visit me first
I think that my boyfriend loves me the most when i am giving him a hand job. .
I stare at girls upper lips to see if they have mustaches.. most of them do!
When i am with my boyfriend and i look at him and i feel like ive never seen him in my life... isnt that so sad?
( ive known him for 4 years and we've been together 18 months)
I used to cut myself for most of 8th grade year and i was bulimic
There is a line of cheaters in my family, im afraid i will be just like them
I keyed two cars the other day and it was the most liberating thing!
My parents went out of town for a week, and i took my moms car for a ride to burger king and got in a car accident.. But nobody every found out.
Ive walked in on my sister giving her ex boyfriend a blow job
I wonder what my friends dicks look like.
My dad has smoked pot my entire life and he watched my neighbors have sex through a window
I am only 17 and desperately want to be a mom, just to have something to take care and will love me unconditionally just for being me.
ahhhh well i think i feel better already.. i will post more later, thanks for reading!
Tags: dad, gulit, cheating, boyfriend, love
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I have the same problem as you. I've done things in my past that if I think a bout I'll just start crying and I can't stop then i feel just a rush of the yearning for suicide in me.
After living with this since i was about 6, i realized something.
You can never change your past, You can only change your present to eftect the future. If you regret these things, write them down and make a list of everything you can learn from them and apply the things you learned from your mistakes to your life. Just let go of it all, your future doesn't have to be that dark. Trust me, you can do it and soon you'll be enjoying each day and be thankful for the stupid things you've done in the past.
After living with this since i was about 6, i realized something.
You can never change your past, You can only change your present to eftect the future. If you regret these things, write them down and make a list of everything you can learn from them and apply the things you learned from your mistakes to your life. Just let go of it all, your future doesn't have to be that dark. Trust me, you can do it and soon you'll be enjoying each day and be thankful for the stupid things you've done in the past.
Posted by Sarah on 5/28/2008 12:06:00 AM (Report abuse)