I've tried killing myself like three times, all that accomplished was being in a coma a few times, a prolonged stay in the hospital, and severe memory loss. It's not worth it. Rock bottom is solid ground to stand up on and start trying to climb back to happiness. Just remember that. It may not seem like it, but if you let it, life will slowly go on.
I went through that. it takes a long time but eventually it doesn't hurt as much. if it was ment to be you will be together, but if its not god will bless you with someone even better and you will be happier then you could evre imagin. i know this sounds like bullshit but its true.