Make me so horny.
-When i was younger, a close friend of my mothers used to sexually abuse me. My mom would let him stay in the house, because he was out of town, when he came to vist us, sometimes. He would sneak into my room in the very middle of the night. He fucked me up the ass when i was VERY young once. As the years progressed he`d fingered me alot and got me to give him hand and blow jobs. He tried fucking me so many times but i was too tight and it would just slip out of place..
I was to scared to tell my mom, and because i never told her, this continued for years! One of the very last few times, he came into my room and began touching me, fingering my clit- whispering in my ear how wet i was.. he got me to give his ablow job. Than he ate me out, he was so horny, he tired fucking me again, he pushed hard.. it didnt get in - but it hurt.. so he tried finger me to make me bigger..In the end i think he heard movement coming from my mothers room, and left.
He eventually stopped.
-The weird thing about this whole story is that when i masterbate. I masterbate thinking of all the things he made me do, and all this things he could have done to me.. its sounds weird.. because as a child i HATED it, and i never fully understood what was going on..
But now i do still hate what he did to me, but when i`m horny, i just start thinking about him.. his huge penis- and i get the best orgaism..touching myself.
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what the hell
Posted by jojielives on 8/25/2010 12:27:00 PM (Report abuse)
pwerful men in control... turn me on to.
Posted by WVVW on 1/19/2009 8:50:00 PM (Report abuse)
I hope you sent that man to jail. What a fucking pervert!!! I he's ever done that to anyone else I hope they reported his sorry ass! It's understandable that you would fantasize about him. He was your first sexual experience and your body remembers that. It's so wrong that he did that to you!!! I hate child abusers! They are the scum of the earth!! It's common for people that have been abused to feel the way you do. Don't feel bad or be ashamed. He should be ashamed for what he did to you.
Posted by an anonymous user on 9/17/2008 2:40:00 PM (Report abuse)
well that must mean that your pretty good now. the guys must like it=/
Posted by Blah on 6/13/2008 5:49:00 PM (Report abuse)
He is one really selfish man.
But i guess nothing can change anything now.
I think the reason you think about him when you actually masterbate is because its really your flesh that was being pleasured. But the idea of HIM doing it to you is not pleasurable. So ...its only logical that when you simulate yourself into another orgasm (which is of the flesh) you would think of an incident that made your body feel good.
But i guess nothing can change anything now.
I think the reason you think about him when you actually masterbate is because its really your flesh that was being pleasured. But the idea of HIM doing it to you is not pleasurable. So ...its only logical that when you simulate yourself into another orgasm (which is of the flesh) you would think of an incident that made your body feel good.
Posted by Mel on 6/5/2008 3:49:00 AM (Report abuse)