My Life. My cutting.
Posted by lostandlonley on 8/12/2008 11:19:00 PM
I know it may sound crazy. But my life has been f****d up! My dad drinks all the time. He bets my mom really bad. One night he came into my room and started tuching me. It was really gross!! Now my mom is getting devorced from him. But he is saying he is going to kill us! My mom is takeing pills now to cope with everything. She just got fired from her job and she is really sick! All this has me so torn up that I feel The Only way to handle it is to cut. Watching the blood drip down my arm is a very comforting feeling. I cut when iam alone in the dark just to feel alive. It makes me happy. Nobody knows I cut because I hide it with braclets all the time. I dont know what to do! Its like I cant stop!
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I get so sick of hearing these kind of stories and so mad at these sexual predators. Why can't people just stop hurting each other!!?? I am so sorry for you and for all the kids who have to hear their moms being beaten and the spirit ripped right out of them. Makes me want to be a vigilante and go around blowing these drunken fools away. I was a cutter too, and I know all about the satisfaction you feel when you cut, but you are hurting YOU and your not the one who should be punished! I think all alcoholics are a waste of space and all they know how to do is HURT people smaller then them. Pathetic wastes of life. You need couseling, honey, and you need to get it soon before your feelings of powerlessness and helplessness get out of control. Don't cut yourself, cuz your giving that loser more power over you.
Posted by Babyhedred on 8/15/2008 2:49:00 PM (Report abuse)
i agree with penguin. do not try to handle this all by yourself. talk to someone, anyone and get them to help you thru this. i know it's hard but having a small support group will help.
Posted by PandaBear on 8/13/2008 11:40:00 AM (Report abuse)
Even if your problems stop, you'd still have the urge to cut. Get the police on your case, and tell them what happens, record the beatings to get proof if you have to. Even, get psychiatric help with a therapist. Don't try to take all of this by yourself, you'll only make yourself worse. I'm sorry I can't help you very much on this ordeal... but I'm sure you'll find your way.
Live strong. (:
Live strong. (:
Posted by Penguin on 8/13/2008 3:25:00 AM (Report abuse)