Mylife34
Posted by lovemyself on 9/23/2008 1:24:00 AM
I'm 34 female who has 4 kids, I come from a family who are all over weight I had to fight it my hole life, I've tried everything, a new diet pill came on the market I bought it.
YES I GOT SKINNY BUT AS SOON AS I TRIED TO BE NORMAL EAT A NORMAL SIZE MEAL I COULD FEEL THE WEIGHT COMING ON, IT AS TAKEN OVER MY LIFE I WANT AS FAR AS TO START TO USE STREET DRUGS YEA I THOUGHT I COULD HANDLE IT ALL THAT DID WAS LAND ME BEHIND BARS NO I'VE BEEN OUT FOR 3MONTHS AFTER SPEEDING A YEAR IN STATE PRISON I'VE GAIN 30 LBS AND I FEEL LIKE MY LIFE IS NOTHING I HATE MYSELF I DONT GO NO WHERE, I WONT BUT CLOTHES TO FIT ME BECAUSE ITS SO DEPRESSING.I START A DIET BUT THEN ITS JUST SO HARD BECAUSE I HAVE NO SUPPORT AROUND ME.MY FAMILY'S HAPPY BEING BIG.I WISH I COULD JUST LOVE ME FOR WHO I AM BUT THATS NOT THE WAY IT IS.GOD I WISH I NEW WHAT TO DO.IT SEEM LIKE ALL I THINK ABOUT IS BEING FAT SITTING WATCHING T.V IN THE SHOWER ON THE COMPUTER I MEAN ALL DAY LONG...I WONT IT TO STOP ALREADY......
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YES I GOT SKINNY BUT AS SOON AS I TRIED TO BE NORMAL EAT A NORMAL SIZE MEAL I COULD FEEL THE WEIGHT COMING ON, IT AS TAKEN OVER MY LIFE I WANT AS FAR AS TO START TO USE STREET DRUGS YEA I THOUGHT I COULD HANDLE IT ALL THAT DID WAS LAND ME BEHIND BARS NO I'VE BEEN OUT FOR 3MONTHS AFTER SPEEDING A YEAR IN STATE PRISON I'VE GAIN 30 LBS AND I FEEL LIKE MY LIFE IS NOTHING I HATE MYSELF I DONT GO NO WHERE, I WONT BUT CLOTHES TO FIT ME BECAUSE ITS SO DEPRESSING.I START A DIET BUT THEN ITS JUST SO HARD BECAUSE I HAVE NO SUPPORT AROUND ME.MY FAMILY'S HAPPY BEING BIG.I WISH I COULD JUST LOVE ME FOR WHO I AM BUT THATS NOT THE WAY IT IS.GOD I WISH I NEW WHAT TO DO.IT SEEM LIKE ALL I THINK ABOUT IS BEING FAT SITTING WATCHING T.V IN THE SHOWER ON THE COMPUTER I MEAN ALL DAY LONG...I WONT IT TO STOP ALREADY......
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Your problem is probably not about weight. Since you are obviously addicted to food, and you went to jail for using drugs, you probably have an addictive personality. There is not shame in that, but treating the symptoms of addiction without looking at the causes and learning to manage the addiction itself will not do any good. I hope I do not sound judgmental, but you probably need some counseling. You need someone to help you learn to love yourself so that you do not feel compelled to abuse your body with food, drugs, punishing exercise and diets, or other substances. I am hoping very much that you learn to do that, because you are worthwhile, at any weight, and you deserve the best life you can give yourself!
Posted by nopicsplease on 9/23/2008 1:59:00 PM (Report abuse)
Try and find some friends or family to excersize with.
Thats what I did and im on my way to losing 40 pounds in the next year for grad
Thats what I did and im on my way to losing 40 pounds in the next year for grad
Posted by MzMichelle on 9/23/2008 11:37:00 AM (Report abuse)
Join a gym, and get a trainer. That's a sure fire way to lose weight =)
Posted by Amore on 9/23/2008 7:10:00 AM (Report abuse)
It's ok. It's hard to stick to a weight loss plan. You shouldn't have to do it alone. There are a ton of support groups on the net and probably local to your area. Do you like excercise? I've found that a moderate diet and excercise keep my weight down. I get on the elliptical trainer while I watch tv or go for walks around the neighborhood with my daughter. Just moving around can be helpful and make you feel better inside. I hate trying to get motivated to excercise, but after I do it, I feel incredible.
Posted by an anonymous user on 9/23/2008 7:06:00 AM (Report abuse)