Nothing to look forward to

Over the past few years I've realized...
The only reason I'm still alive is becuase I feel too guilty about the effect my death could have on other people to end it.
And I think thats a really shitty reason to stay here.

I have nothing to look forward to in life, I have a useless major, no real talents, nothing that I have to look forward to when I wake up.

I've decided my plan
I'm going to graduate..and the winter after I graduate, I'm going to just end it.
This way I can't dissapoint anyone...It will be the part of my life when I "have so many possibilities ahead of me"
'loved ones' will remember the person I could have been, rather than the failure I will be...and any of my friends I care about now will have graduated and moved on with thier lives...and by the time any of them think to look me up, I'll already be gone.

...This is the only "life" plan I have...
its my only comfort
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anonymous user
You're all so young. There is much left unexplored. I'm on my fifties. My best years are behind me. I squandered my love and my life on men who didn't deserve me. I'm married to an alcoholic. I'm having an affair with a man who will never make me first in his life. I have no children, no real friends, and no money.

There is no reset button. Take advantage of the gift of youth. Find a friend and see the world, take some risks. I squandered my gift. There is absolutely nothing more for me than breathing in and breathing out.
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moodyome
Like you, I have a plan. My grandmother died five years ago and my life kind of emptied out. I don't particularly like people or life itself, so my plan is to go to her grave (3000 miles from here) and off myself there so I can be spiritually closer to her when I go.
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none00
i feel ur pain...but killing urself wont solve anything...so don't do it!
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JakJo
God Loves you.... please pray.. and watch this video and know someone HIM, the almighty CREATOR... is here for you.. never left your side. The devil is in your live, and you should rebuke him!

http://youtube.com/watch?v=cyheJ480LYA
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HElovesyou11
Please please don't do it. You have no idea how much i understand how you feel. But i'm still here. Can you say that my life is useless? Nobody's life is useless... you could be ANYTHING. Do anything. There's so much you haven't experienced. Yes, there's a lot that lies ahead for you, you just can't see it yet. You could do a lot with your life. You could help others.
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Jotiii
Don't do it! please!

We all go through this one moment or another... it's the way god tests us... and we must be strong and overcome it and we all get our payback eventually...

you know I've been there too.... and it felt the same... But I somehow managed to get my life back on the right track... and I learned alot from this experience: firstly, I learned that one can go on and make huge steps after saying he/she cannot take it anymore.

and secondly, I once heard a saying: good things come to those who wait. I can assure you this is true. just wait a little bit... you will find what you need...

Good Luck! :)
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