Phantom child

Posted by an anonymous user on 9/29/2008 7:41:00 AM

I know this is really bizarre.i was sexually violated 4 years ago.ever since then i've 'created' a phantom child to deal with it.she's the part of me I lost that day, my youth, my innocence.I want to create a nursery for her.i've never told anyone.her name is Lily.over the years I've seen her less.But every so often she comes around.Her birthday would've been in July.even though I never had her I miss her.

i really am fuked up.

Tags: baby, rape

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You aren't fucked up! What's fucked up is what happened to you. It's not your fault and you compartmentalized what happened to protect yourself. It's good that you're getting out your feelings now. A nursery might be exetreme. You might be encouraging those bad feelings to stick around. Maybe you could just have one thing that symbolizes that pain and take it and keep it stored away. I hope that you were able to talk about what happened when it happened and that you had some support. Maybe you need some support now. There are plenty of places to receive that help from, just do a search on the internet. Take care!

Posted by an anonymous user on 9/29/2008 11:17:00 AM (Report abuse)

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