Prostition back to bite me
Posted by paula on 11/13/2008 5:06:00 PM
I am a 51 year old woman who was once a prositute.I worked all over the u.S.And even out of the country.I had several pimps but was with one for 20 years and have a beautiful 21 year old son.He does not really know everything, be beleives that his now minister Father was a Drug dealer and I sold the drugs for him This is such a socially unacceptable profession that I am really embarassed and do not want my son to ver know.This is maybe going to be hlepful to me to get it out and not have to tell him.I love him and do not want him to have any thoughts of his Mother selling her body.And especially knowing that his Dad had me out on the streets and there was some abuse.Well thanks for letting me vent my story and wish me luck.
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Well, anonymous @ 9:42 pm...EVERYONE can't be as uptight as you seem to be...if they were, we would still be without the wheel, and women would still be considered "property".
Obviously, the OP realizes her past was less than desirable, and she fears hurting her child (who, regardless of his parentage, is innocent, by the way)...sounds like remorse to me.
It is unfortunate that we cannot ALL be as perfect as you seem to think you are---but that is a little hard to determine because you haven't bared your soul, or signed your name to your opinion.
Don't you live in a glass house? Does it get hot in there?
Obviously, the OP realizes her past was less than desirable, and she fears hurting her child (who, regardless of his parentage, is innocent, by the way)...sounds like remorse to me.
It is unfortunate that we cannot ALL be as perfect as you seem to think you are---but that is a little hard to determine because you haven't bared your soul, or signed your name to your opinion.
Don't you live in a glass house? Does it get hot in there?
Posted by SPM82970 on 11/14/2008 1:02:00 AM (Report abuse)
For real he's better off not knowing! My mom decided to tell me a secret when I was 23 and really, I'd rather not know at all. I could have died not knowing, but there's always this to think about also. I may have been very angry if I found out when she passes from someone else. If there's a chance of that happening. Here's food for thought also, is he a liberal thinker? It really does make a difference!
Posted by an anonymous user on 11/13/2008 10:00:00 PM (Report abuse)
the lack of people's morals and ethics in this day and age is unbeliveable no wonder the world is so fucken twisted......sex for money...positions ect is just wrong people grow up and get some morals.
Posted by an anonymous user on 11/13/2008 9:42:00 PM (Report abuse)
i mean "idea"... typo
Posted by SPM82970 on 11/13/2008 8:27:00 PM (Report abuse)
You do not owe your son any explanation...you have made mistakes (haven't we all?), and while yours may be more socially unexceptable than others, it does not mean that you cannot be a caring, effective mother. Sharing this information with your son could hurt his sense of worth...I mean, it hurt yours, didn't it?
While I am sure that your son's feelings for you wouldn't change, it may cause him to look at you (and his father) differently, and that could bring everyone pain. I would just say "I've done a lot of things that I am not proud of, but it all helped to make me who I am today, and I wouldn't change my life because I have you (to your son)".
I am sure that you are a good person...I have never been a prostitute, but I was married for 5 years...I used to screw my husband for new clothes, spending money, and vacations....somehow, it seems similar, but instead of selling myself to many different people, I just traded myself many times over to one man...in some ways, it seems like you had the better dea.
While I am sure that your son's feelings for you wouldn't change, it may cause him to look at you (and his father) differently, and that could bring everyone pain. I would just say "I've done a lot of things that I am not proud of, but it all helped to make me who I am today, and I wouldn't change my life because I have you (to your son)".
I am sure that you are a good person...I have never been a prostitute, but I was married for 5 years...I used to screw my husband for new clothes, spending money, and vacations....somehow, it seems similar, but instead of selling myself to many different people, I just traded myself many times over to one man...in some ways, it seems like you had the better dea.
Posted by SPM82970 on 11/13/2008 8:26:00 PM (Report abuse)
don't tell her that you dumb fuck everone has a choice she could have done any with her life we all make are own choices right or wrong and she choose a realy fucked up one at any time she could have quit and walked another road..........as for the son if you realy love that boy don't tell him a dam thing.
Posted by an anonymous user on 11/13/2008 6:30:00 PM (Report abuse)
Good luck Paula.
You did what you had to do back then. It may not have been the best decision but, it is your past. You son loves you. He should not hold it against you. Everyone has had to go through or has done something they are not proud of. You're not alone. I found out my grandmother was a prostitue, my father was a product of that. My grandfather was her client. I find nothing wrong with that. I'm proud of my grandmother. She was a good women who took care of her child & grandchilldren. That is what most important.
Don't worry You'll be ok.
You did what you had to do back then. It may not have been the best decision but, it is your past. You son loves you. He should not hold it against you. Everyone has had to go through or has done something they are not proud of. You're not alone. I found out my grandmother was a prostitue, my father was a product of that. My grandfather was her client. I find nothing wrong with that. I'm proud of my grandmother. She was a good women who took care of her child & grandchilldren. That is what most important.
Don't worry You'll be ok.
Posted by yours on 11/13/2008 6:16:00 PM (Report abuse)